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Praestat_Mori
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- May 21, 2023
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I kicked myself off with alcohol again today again. Why is it so fucking hard to die .... I just wanna cease a useless existence!!! Sorry for rant / vent!
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LOL cyanide wouldn't be the prob, it's painful !!! LOL ok no prob .... I'm desperate right now and full of alc.cyanide capsules etc illegal
Perhaps try to jump off a building??? Almost instant deathI kicked myself off with alcohol again today again. Why is it so fucking hard to die .... I just wanna cease a useless existence!!! Sorry for rant / vent!
I can't do it I have the chance 24/7 from 20th floor ... I'd have done it if SI didn't stop me. Jumping is too cruel for me.Perhaps try to jump off a building??? Almost instant death
I know the feeling.. life is a tortureI kicked myself off with alcohol again today again. Why is it so fucking hard to die .... I just wanna cease a useless existence!!! Sorry for rant / vent!
I saw a video of a guy Michael marin or whatever. He was in Court. He had cyanide capsules. As soon as they read the guilty verdict he took the cyanide capsules. It didn't look that painful to me and was down very quickly. That video is easy to find.LOL cyanide wouldn't be the prob, it's painful !!! LOL ok no prob .... I'm desperate right now and full of alc.
Yeah: N I wish for it so much right now!
Ah, the SI (Survival Instinct, if I got the abbreviation correctly?) that lies to you and says that there is still hope in this life. What type of hope you have? The reason why I am still here is because I want to travel and so, I don't have the desire to CTB yet. But it's your choice. Your lucky you have a free escape from this world with that method right there. Good luck.I can't do it I have the chance 24/7 from 20th floor ... I'd have done it if SI didn't stop me. Jumping is too cruel for me.
I think several grams of it are pretty much peaceful. CN- is indeed my emergency backup method. But I'd need to travel for it right now.I saw a video of a guy Michael marin or whatever. He was in Court. He had cyanide capsules. As soon as they read the guilty verdict he took the cyanide capsules. It didn't look that painful to me and was down very quickly. That video is easy to find.
But prolifers have everyone believing every suicide method except nembutal is painful
Still too much hope left my life could find a "turnaround" and family, that 's the biggest issues here that prevent me.Ah, the SI (Survival Instinct, if I got the abbreviation correctly?) that lies to you and says that there is still hope in this life. What type of hope you have? The reason why I am still here is because I want to travel and so, I don't have the desire to CTB yet. But it's your choice. Your lucky you have a free escape from this world with that method right there. Good luck.
Honestly if I lived on the 20th floor, I'd be gone long ago...I can't do it I have the chance 24/7 from 20th floor ... I'd have done it if SI didn't stop me. Jumping is too cruel for me.
Lucky you!!! I already have a "problem" changing the lamps for the terrace lighting although there's no real "danger" for me.Honestly if I lived on the 20th floor, I'd be gone long ago...
I think it's a good thing, though. I wouldn't want to kill myself on impulse. So I'm glad I didn't have access to anything that could seriously hurt me, especially when I was younger.Lucky you!!! I already have a "problem" changing the lamps for the terrace lighting although there's no real "danger" for me.
I'm not sure you'd be around long to feel much pain, but everyone has their benchmark for suffering. A Balkan politician/General/war-maker downed a shot of the stuff he'd prepped & pocketed after recieving a life sentence in the Hague quite recently. He was out before the judge summed up. Must be true....it's on yootoobLOL cyanide wouldn't be the prob, it's painful !!! LOL ok no prob .... I'm desperate right now and full of alc.
Yeah: N I wish for it so much right now!
I shit bricks just thinking about heights especially after I intended to ctb that way and ended up just staring down at the ground far down legs like jelly. Seems impossible.Perhaps try to jump off a building??? Almost instant death
I feel like I will react that way too... But it's worth it if your life is that trashI shit bricks just thinking about heights especially after I intended to ctb that way and ended up just staring down at the ground far down legs like jelly. Seems impossible.
Of course it was worth it, but even though in my head I knew this was what I wanted biology just kicked in and gave me SI. There's always the case of just doing it and overcoming SI, and it really is just an instantaneous decision.. but the more I think of it, I don't want my last experience being one of excruciating pain even if it's only for a moment.I feel like I will react that way too... But it's worth it if your life is that trash
Oh yes, the Survival instinct, that lies us and tells us that there is still hope in this life. It's the reason why I am still here. We think life is gonna get better so it makes us value our life more.Of course it was worth it, but even though in my head I knew this was what I wanted biology just kicked in and gave me SI. There's always the case of just doing it and overcoming SI, and it really is just an instantaneous decision.. but the more I think of it, I don't want my last experience being one of excruciating pain even if it's only for a moment.
I just literally can't do it.
Yes I know it! Sure he did it because according to his own personal view he was not guilty and death was the better option for him.I'm not sure you'd be around long to feel much pain, but everyone has their benchmark for suffering. A Balkan politician/General/war-maker downed a shot of the stuff he'd prepped & pocketed after recieving a life sentence in the Hague quite recently. He was out before the judge summed up. Must be true....it's on yootoob
SI is a double edged sword. Sure, for us here SI is a big problem but in most other cases it saves the body from severe injuries and unwanted death and such situations happen more often than we may really notice.Oh yes, the Survival instinct, that lies us and tells us that there is still hope in this life. It's the reason why I am still here. We think life is gonna get better so it makes us value our life more.