Whynot32

Whynot32

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If one is willing to die, one should be able to go through a little bit of pain to do it. It's all about the dedication and determination.
That's your choice, I shouldn't have to feel what you think I should to insure my own peace. To each their own.
 
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WhyIsLife56

WhyIsLife56

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Pretty much this. Oh no my throat and stomach will hurt for 20 minutes. Big deal I deal with that all the time in my daily life that is pure suffering. I've said it multiple times before and I'll say it again. A few minutes of pain is all it takes to end your suffering forever.
I've dealt with stomach aches my whole entire life. I'd rather deal with it for 20 minutes and be done with it than dealing with it for the rest of my life.
 
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No I do not, I was planning on going to hospital and getting and iv in place and just unplugging bag and leaving. Ridiculous but, it will work just fine.

I have a friend who worked in ER, said junkies do this exact same thing.
 
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That's your choice, I shouldn't have to feel what you think I should to insure my own peace. To each their own.
It's not a choice. You're going to end up with some sort of pain regardless of the method.
 
Whynot32

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I have a friend who worked in ER, said junkies do this exact same thing.
Well makes sense. I've never used any opiates in my life and I thought of it, can't imagine why they wouldn't. There's other ways to such as plugging, snorting and eating. I've read stories about officers who OD just from field testing pure F. If I eat 2 grams with zero tolerance, see ya. Only reason IV is more appealing is no matter what it's going in and can't come out.
 
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I can get 10 years imprisonment if i'm importing F and it get's intercepted, nope.
 
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It's not a choice. You're going to end up with some sort of pain regardless of the method.
You honestly believe that SN is less painful than F or H? Again, to each their own. I, like many people interested in N, F or H, am seeking as pain free of an exit as possible. I don't see the point in degrading someone for wanting that.
 
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Schadenfreude

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I live near a city where heroin and fentanyl is abundant, and it's relatively easy to find a dealer around here. Definitely my go-to method. I've prior experience on OD'ing (accidental) and of it in general. It's also pretty cheap; about half sack is roughly $60~80. A half can probably kill more than 5 people depending on the purity of the product, of course. Last time I got it was certainly potent enough for me to OD accidentally from just two hits smoking it.
 
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It's not a choice. You're going to end up with some sort of pain regardless of the method.
You honestly believe that SN is less painful than F or H? Again, to each their own. I, like many people interested in N, F or H, am seeking as pain free of an exit as possible. I don't see the point in degrading someone for wanting that.
I can get 10 years imprisonment if i'm importing F and it get's intercepted, nope.
don't import. Get it from dark market source in your country.
 
WhyIsLife56

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You honestly believe that SN is less painful than F or H? Again, to each their own. I, like many people interested in N, F or H, am seeking as pain free of an exit as possible. I don't see the point in degrading someone for wanting that.
I never said it was less painful
 
Schadenfreude

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It's not a choice. You're going to end up with some sort of pain regardless of the method.

Not necessarily true. Fentanyl overdose is entirely painless, at least from my experience. You lose consciousness before you even notice what's happening to you. If anything, you feel high lol.
 
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Not necessarily true. Fentanyl overdose is entirely painless, at least from my experience. You lose consciousness before you even notice what's happening to you. If anything, you feel high lol.
That can be scary to some people. Losing consciousness and not feeling a thing.
The anxiety and all that. There's still some level of discomfort. It doesn't necessarily have to be pain, like stomach pain.
 
Schadenfreude

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That can be scary to some people. Losing consciousness and not feeling a thing.
The anxiety and all that. There's still some level of discomfort. It doesn't necessarily have to pain, like stomach pain.

I don't think you understand. You literally lose consciousness before you even realize it's happening. All I remember was standing up smoking some fent and the next I woke up w/ the paramedics surrounding me after being narcanned. Or if you meant before they actually do the whole process and worrying over it, then yeah I suppose you're right.
 
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I don't think you understand. You literally lose consciousness before you even realize it's happening. All I remember was standing up smoking some fent and the next I woke up w/ the paramedics surrounding me after being narcanned. Or if you meant before they actually do the whole process and worrying over it, then yeah I suppose you're right.
Yeah that's what I meant. The whole process of it
 
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Well makes sense. I've never used any opiates in my life and I thought of it, can't imagine why they wouldn't. There's other ways to such as plugging, snorting and eating. I've read stories about officers who OD just from field testing pure F. If I eat 2 grams with zero tolerance, see ya. Only reason IV is more appealing is no matter what it's going in and can't come out.

Lol, that's precisely why I won't be field testing it. A user on here CTB about a week ago by plugging F. I heard eating has low absorption rate though. Snorting is the way for me, just inhale through that straw for a second, and off you go.

I can get 10 years imprisonment if i'm importing F and it get's intercepted, nope.

How are they going to prove that you ordered it? Anyone can put your name on a letter and send you drugs. And you were never in possession since they intercepted it.
 
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I am working on completing the necessary items for SN, but I would still like to try getting F if I can.

If OP can help with that, I would appreciate it very much.
 
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If I had easy access to F right now I wouldn't be here suffering. That's one thing I (personally) would be terrified of screwing with online (worse than not dying? Not dying and having the cops be involved). Not to sound dramatic! But that would be my way to go.

And about getting it in person I don't know, a lot of people out here don't fuck with opiates because we get soooo many deaths people are just going back to weed and blow lol.
I've inquired about pain meds when I really needdd them because family stole them after surgery and I was DESPERATE (doctors don't care and obviously think you're lying), contacted soooo many people and couldn't even find some damn Vicodin notnevrn codeine >.<

And after being sexually assaulted 4 times since this summer I'm not just gonna go into the streets of LA alone.. I can't do it.

Edit: I've taken a bunch of sleeping pills (like, I'm okay lol I just need to sleep, this my 12th day awake) and I feel like my above message didn't make sense so take it or leave it lol. Insomnia is nuts
 
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No I am not urban, quite the opposite. 2,000 people in my home town and I don't have any connects but I do know how to use the dark market.
I'm considering doing a post on how to. Seems people think it is much harder than it actually is.

It is that easy. Dark markets are not as hard to use than people think.
One warning, I know someone who used the dark web to buy stuff to make some drug or other and ended up with the DEA ringing her doorbell wanting her to explain. The thing about black markets is that you're always at risk of being caught. It may be easy but with the risk of not only having suicide taken but also having to spend time locked up, it's not surprising most people would go with SN.
 
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I don't think you understand. You literally lose consciousness before you even realize it's happening. All I remember was standing up smoking some fent and the next I woke up w/ the paramedics surrounding me after being narcanned. Or if you meant before they actually do the whole process and worrying over it, then yeah I suppose you're right.
how much did you do?
 
WhyIsLife56

WhyIsLife56

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It's up to the person what they're willing to risk.
 
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If I had easy access to F right now I wouldn't be here suffering. That's one thing I (personally) would be terrified of screwing with online (worse than not dying? Not dying and having the cops be involved). Not to sound dramatic! But that would be my way to go.

And about getting it in person I don't know, a lot of people out here don't fuck with opiates because we get soooo many deaths people are just going back to weed and blow lol.
I've inquired about pain meds when I really needdd them because family stole them after surgery and I was DESPERATE (doctors don't care and obviously think you're lying), contacted soooo many people and couldn't even find some damn Vicodin notnevrn codeine >.<

And after being sexually assaulted 4 times since this summer I'm not just gonna go into the streets of LA.. I can't

Edit: I've taken a bunch of sleeping pills (like, I'm okay lol I just need to sleep, this my 12th day awake) and I feel like my above message didn't make sense so take it or leave it lol. Insomnia is nuts
Sounds like you've been really going through it. I hope you can find a way to sleep. 12 days is a really long time to be awake.
 
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xBrialesana

xBrialesana

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One warning, I know someone who used the dark web to buy stuff to make some drug or other and ended up with the DEA ringing her doorbell wanting her to explain. The thing about black markets is that you're always at risk of being caught. It may be easy but with the risk of not only having suicide taken but also having to spend time locked up, it's not surprising most people would go with SN.
Exactly dude that's why I'm freaked. If I went with F it would be a dealer for sure.
 
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Whynot32

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I am working on completing the necessary items for SN, but I would still like to take a chance at getting F if I can - see how far I can take it.

If OP can help with that, I would appreciate it very much.
I can not help with obtaining but I will be posting a guide to the dark net and op security. It is far less daunting than one would think.
 
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Shinbu

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Nov 23, 2019
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I don't know how the darknet works, nor the way you wanna go with, that sounds complicated. I heard of patches, I haven't did research on that yet. How much do patches go on the dark web?.
 
Schadenfreude

Schadenfreude

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how much did you do?

As mentioned above, only two hits of smoking it. Literally just a small pinch of it; can't really gauge out the exact amount though. And this was when I was already a few months clean.
 
Whynot32

Whynot32

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Jan 13, 2020
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One warning, I know someone who used the dark web to buy stuff to make some drug or other and ended up with the DEA ringing her doorbell wanting her to explain. The thing about black markets is that you're always at risk of being caught. It may be easy but with the risk of not only having suicide taken but also having to spend time locked up, it's not surprising most people would go with SN.
There are ways to circumvent this. Using your own name is a sure fire way to seal the deal. On the amounts that one would be buying online they would likely not even bother. Like one use said above, you can not prove who sent something to your address. Use someone else's name, that you don't know. There not going to try and fight a case on a gram or two of this mailed to someone with no criminal record.
 
xBrialesana

xBrialesana

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Dec 17, 2019
552
Sounds like you've been really going through it. I hope you can find a way to sleep. 12 days is a really long time to be awake.
Honestly that means so much thank you. I really have been. <3 I've even dyed my hair bright purple so you KNOW the breakdown is real lol. And yeah anyways thank you I'm hurting terribly and it's nice to see kindness
 
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Where I live the only F available you must buy a huge quantity worth AU$13,000. Certainly out of my price range.
That's odd that you could find a large quantity but not small. Maybe ask for a sample?
 

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