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merciful

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i've pretty much decided that opiates are my way to go. i ordered SN but im not sure if it will ever actually arrive as everyone seems to be having issues with customs. KN doesn't seem to be available either in canada (unless im stupid, please correct me if i'm wrong). we do have an opioid epidemic and fentanyl is probably easier to find than anything at this point. we have legal and safe drug testing available also, and i'm hoping to find a source with carfent or just pure fent. i will try a couple sources if need be to make sure i get the strongest one.

my question is, i have no idea how much to use. i will be shooting it IV. i'm completely new to opiates, other than a couple recreational oxys i took in highschool and smoking heroin once. i don't know what an acceptable dosage is. how much should i be getting? i'd prefer to overshoot it if possible, i mean especially with IV i don't think it would hurt to go a bit overkill since it wouldn't run the risk of vomiting it out etc.

for reference i'm about 125lbs and have almost no opiate tolerance. how much should i get? is IV the best method of administering it? is this even a lethal enough option? is it going to be painful or is this generally a more peaceful way? i can't afford to fail this one.

thank you.
 
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how do you get fent? (I am new member and don't have DM capability yet but can I DM you for details later? location is the US)

but to answer your question, here is an article that specify the amount of fent patch used: https://journals.lww.com/amjforensi...06000/transdermal_fentanyl_death_pact.21.aspx
i mean fent isn't possible to acquire legally really, but depending on your location is very easy to acquire on the street. obviously this runs risks of legality and purity issues, and also the prerequisite of having to know certain people or have the confidence to go out and ask random people if they know where to find it. i can't help with any sources or anything, but for me as an active drug user it's a pretty easy find. you can also look on the dark web.
 
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i mean fent isn't possible to acquire legally really, but depending on your location is very easy to acquire on the street. obviously this runs risks of legality and purity issues, and also the prerequisite of having to know certain people or have the confidence to go out and ask random people if they know where to find it. i can't help with any sources or anything, but for me as an active drug user it's a pretty easy find. you can also look on the dark web.
Do you have any suggestions/tips on getting people to talk to me on the street? Apparently I look like a cop and people that I talk to act like they don't know anything/anyone, even when I already know they do.

I'm sure asking this is a stretch but it's getting very frustrating.
 
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i've pretty much decided that opiates are my way to go. i ordered SN but im not sure if it will ever actually arrive as everyone seems to be having issues with customs. KN doesn't seem to be available either in canada (unless im stupid, please correct me if i'm wrong). we do have an opioid epidemic and fentanyl is probably easier to find than anything at this point. we have legal and safe drug testing available also, and i'm hoping to find a source with carfent or just pure fent. i will try a couple sources if need be to make sure i get the strongest one.

my question is, i have no idea how much to use. i will be shooting it IV. i'm completely new to opiates, other than a couple recreational oxys i took in highschool and smoking heroin once. i don't know what an acceptable dosage is. how much should i be getting? i'd prefer to overshoot it if possible, i mean especially with IV i don't think it would hurt to go a bit overkill since it wouldn't run the risk of vomiting it out etc.

for reference i'm about 125lbs and have almost no opiate tolerance. how much should i get? is IV the best method of administering it? is this even a lethal enough option? is it going to be painful or is this generally a more peaceful way? i can't afford to fail this one.

thank you.
You should take it together with benzos, and even then, the common consensus on this forum is that opiate overdoses are not reliable enough.
 
merciful

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Do you have any suggestions/tips on getting people to talk to me on the street? Apparently I look like a cop and people that I talk to act like they don't know anything/anyone, even when I already know they do.

I'm sure asking this is a stretch but it's getting very frustrating.
this is a bit of a tough one. i have a hard time as well cause despite being an active user i do look pretty clean cut and put together despite being covered in tattoos. i haven't tried my luck with fentanyl from a street source yet but i have acquired a few meth sources this way, and generally its going to be the same rundown.
what i generally do to make myself not seem like a cop or sketchy is:
-dress down a lot, you don't have to look homeless but looking unkempt/ not very put together helps. but don't look like you're TRYING to look like a mess. bonus points if you look strung out/ haven't showered etc imo.
-i'm usually high when i go, and again when you're a drug user you kinda just… radiate that. even when you're sober certain mannerisms can give it away i guess.
-sometimes i'll talk to people/chat/get high with them or around them prior to asking. most people don't like when you just randomly approach asking for a plug, and unless they've seen you before or you genuinely just look like an addict it sketches them out. drug addicts are notoriously paranoid. especially people on the street.
- i know many people who have had success looking on GRINDR for meth of all things. weird i know but it seems effective. not sure if it's going to work as easily with fent but if you can find meth you can probably source fent through either the same plug or they will be able to direct you to where to get it.

i know these tips aren't really going to be SUPER helpful. there's no real golden ticket i guess other than just think about what a cop would say/do/look like and do none of that, as well as trying to present as someone with an addiction as much as possible. if you look around and talk to enough people SOMEONE will eventually point you in the right direction. i recommend looking for homeless people.

good luck.
You should take it together with benzos, and even then, the common consensus on this forum is that opiate overdoses are not reliable enough.
this is my fear. but i think IV with a high enough dose should be enough. i could mix with benzos and alcohol also, if that would make it more reliable. i dont have any chance of being discovered or narcanned at least but i do worry about waking up and having to replan the whole thing.
 
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how do you get fent? (I am new member and don't have DM capability yet but can I DM you for details later? location is the US)

but to answer your question, here is an article that specify the amount of fent patch used: https://journals.lww.com/amjforensi...06000/transdermal_fentanyl_death_pact.21.aspx
I think of you post and respond it opens dm pm access - I relate to the both of you on this one
how do you get fent? (I am new member and don't have DM capability yet but can I DM you for details later? location is the US)

but to answer your question, here is an article that specify the amount of fent patch used: https://journals.lww.com/amjforensi...06000/transdermal_fentanyl_death_pact.21.aspx
Post at length login respond and it will let you msg people - this seems like the most painless way etc
this is a bit of a tough one. i have a hard time as well cause despite being an active user i do look pretty clean cut and put together despite being covered in tattoos. i haven't tried my luck with fentanyl from a street source yet but i have acquired a few meth sources this way, and generally its going to be the same rundown.
what i generally do to make myself not seem like a cop or sketchy is:
-dress down a lot, you don't have to look homeless but looking unkempt/ not very put together helps. but don't look like you're TRYING to look like a mess. bonus points if you look strung out/ haven't showered etc imo.
-i'm usually high when i go, and again when you're a drug user you kinda just… radiate that. even when you're sober certain mannerisms can give it away i guess.
-sometimes i'll talk to people/chat/get high with them or around them prior to asking. most people don't like when you just randomly approach asking for a plug, and unless they've seen you before or you genuinely just look like an addict it sketches them out. drug addicts are notoriously paranoid. especially people on the street.
- i know many people who have had success looking on GRINDR for meth of all things. weird i know but it seems effective. not sure if it's going to work as easily with fent but if you can find meth you can probably source fent through either the same plug or they will be able to direct you to where to get it.

i know these tips aren't really going to be SUPER helpful. there's no real golden ticket i guess other than just think about what a cop would say/do/look like and do none of that, as well as trying to present as someone with an addiction as much as possible. if you look around and talk to enough people SOMEONE will eventually point you in the right direction. i recommend looking for homeless people.

good luck.

this is my fear. but i think IV with a high enough dose should be enough. i could mix with benzos and alcohol also, if that would make it more reliable. i dont have any chance of being discovered or narcanned at least but i do worry about waking up and having to replan the whole thing.
How are they not reliable enough? That makes no sense
Do you have any suggestions/tips on getting people to talk to me on the street? Apparently I look like a cop and people that I talk to act like they don't know anything/anyone, even when I already know they do.

I'm sure asking this is a stretch but it's getting very frustrating.
Can share experience but not guide etc on public forum -
 
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merciful

merciful

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Jun 27, 2025
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I think of you post and respond it opens dm pm access - I relate to the both of you on this one

Post at length login respond and it will let you msg people - this seems like the most painless way etc

How are they not reliable enough? That makes no sense

Can share experience but not guide etc on public forum -
i can see that you pmd me but the conversation doesn't show up on my end… not sure how to fix this.
 
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ndver1122

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this is a bit of a tough one. i have a hard time as well cause despite being an active user i do look pretty clean cut and put together despite being covered in tattoos. i haven't tried my luck with fentanyl from a street source yet but i have acquired a few meth sources this way, and generally its going to be the same rundown.
what i generally do to make myself not seem like a cop or sketchy is:
-dress down a lot, you don't have to look homeless but looking unkempt/ not very put together helps. but don't look like you're TRYING to look like a mess. bonus points if you look strung out/ haven't showered etc imo.
-i'm usually high when i go, and again when you're a drug user you kinda just… radiate that. even when you're sober certain mannerisms can give it away i guess.
-sometimes i'll talk to people/chat/get high with them or around them prior to asking. most people don't like when you just randomly approach asking for a plug, and unless they've seen you before or you genuinely just look like an addict it sketches them out. drug addicts are notoriously paranoid. especially people on the street.
- i know many people who have had success looking on GRINDR for meth of all things. weird i know but it seems effective. not sure if it's going to work as easily with fent but if you can find meth you can probably source fent through either the same plug or they will be able to direct you to where to get it.

i know these tips aren't really going to be SUPER helpful. there's no real golden ticket i guess other than just think about what a cop would say/do/look like and do none of that, as well as trying to present as someone with an addiction as much as possible. if you look around and talk to enough people SOMEONE will eventually point you in the right direction. i recommend looking for homeless people.

good luck.

this is my fear. but i think IV with a high enough dose should be enough. i could mix with benzos and alcohol also, if that would make it more reliable. i dont have any chance of being discovered or narcanned at least but i do worry about waking up and having to replan the whole thing.
Thanks SO much for this.

Sorry for my naivety, but how would I do this on GINDR?
 
merciful

merciful

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Thanks SO much for this.

Sorry for my naivety, but how would I do this on GINDR?
grindr is a gay hookup/ dating app. sign up, make a profile and state that you're looking to party. i'd keep your face and photos off of it. talk to some people and ask around for party favours. might take some searching but this is a tried and true method believe it or not especially for stimulants. just be careful with who you talk to/meet up with obviously.
 
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ngl it feels like a mission impossible for me :ahhha: I def don't look like a cop but I look totally innocent and nice (which is...probably true)
I had fent once during a general anesthesia (thus very highly monitored etc) and it knocked me off right away.
But I won't risk breaking the law to obtain it via the dark web -_-
 
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ngl it feels like a mission impossible for me :ahhha: I def don't look like a cop but I look totally innocent and nice (which is...probably true)
I had fent once during a general anesthesia (thus very highly monitored etc) and it knocked me off right away.
But I won't risk breaking the law to obtain it via the dark web -_-
Understood - unsure if you are US based or not
ah not yet, idk what to say haha
just anything - like, I agree, I hear where you're coming from and can relate…
 
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ndver1122

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grindr is a gay hookup/ dating app. sign up, make a profile and state that you're looking to party. i'd keep your face and photos off of it. talk to some people and ask around for party favours. might take some searching but this is a tried and true method believe it or not especially for stimulants. just be careful with who you talk to/meet up with obviously.

I'll give it a try. Thanks again.
 

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