Discussion Why I can't impulsively ctb despite anger

[fkyou]

Many times I remember horrible memories and thoughts. Why I don't just say fk it get angry and go ahead and do it??? Most of the times that's how suicides happen.but why it doesn't work like that for me. I remember or feel something that burns and makes me want to peace out but don't want to act on it because of that.ehh

 

[k1m]

Because maybe you still have things to handle while alive. There are things you haven't tried, you know there's a way to get better at some level. The suicidal ideation helps to soothe your pain, actually hurting yourself doesn't.

 

[honorando]

You still want to do some stuff while your alive

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

Many times I remember horrible memories and thoughts. Why I don't just say fk it get angry and go ahead and do it??? Most of the times that's how suicides happen.but why it doesn't work like that for me. I remember or feel something that burns and makes me want to peace out but don't want to act on it because of that.ehh

I know this. I had so often horrible moments which reminded me how much I suffered in my life but then when I put the noose on my neck and pulled up the rope to compress the carotids I always no matter how sad/angry/hopeless etc I am I always get afraid immediately and stop it.
I think maybe it si? Or maybe anxiety in general?

 

[ih34rty0u]

same situation. i freak out when it comes to actually doing it. i know it's SI kicking in, but it's weird how some people seem to overcome it much easier.

i often feel stuck. like, i don't wanna live, but im scared of dying either. what does it even feel like? do you realize when the exact moment you die comes? fear of the unknown is overwhelming.

i wish there was another option not to experience suffering.

 

[kitkat9234]

same situation. i freak out when it comes to actually doing it. i know it's SI kicking in, but it's weird how some people seem to overcome it much easier.

i often feel stuck. like, i don't wanna live, but im scared of dying either. what does it even feel like? do you realize when the exact moment you die comes? fear of the unknown is overwhelming.

i wish there was another option not to experience suffering.

I feel the same exact way