Venting Why does it have to be this awful

[shroomia]

What is fucking wrong with this reality
I can't believe this is just it
This is reality
This is how things are
It doesn't make sense in my head
How can reality be this awful
This cruel
This unjust
But this is it
This hell is all there is
And I feel so cursed to have ever gotten to exist at all
I don't understand what's my purpose is if I just suffer every day
But there is no purpose to all of this
I'm not suffering because of some bigger picture
I'm suffering just because
And that makes it so much worse
To be trapped in this uncaring place
And the worst part is that there still are so many things that I'd like to experience
But it's impossible to fully cherish anything anymore
The pain is always in the back of my head
And it tints every moment
It's so unfair life gives me things to aspire and experiences Id like to have but then locks me out of fully enjoying anything anymore
And to be forced to go through so much suffering to experience them
I just don't know how I'm supposed to do that

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

it's what you say but multiply it by a quadrillion times worse.

but they tell us we have to suffer and can't hire someone to help us with suicide because they made that a crime. we are slaves

they tell us that kind of pain and suffering is part of "beautiful life" . no life is hell . there is pain so bad it makes everything else meaningless.

 

[DoomCry]

Those who suffer in life, who feel terrible every day and hate this existence, are often too cowardly even to think about suicide — let alone talk about it. Do you know what they really want? They don't want you to leave the ride... they want you to stay. They want to see you suffer, because they know that if you're someone capable of taking your own life, you must be someone who suffers even more than they do. And your suffering, in a twisted way, can ease their own pain.

Your self-determination is devastating to them, and that's exactly why they'll do anything they can to stop you from going through with it.

 

[shroomia]

Everyone tells me things will get better and I will be happy again
But what does that help me right now
Yes im scared of future pain and suffering but the issue is the pain and misery right now are what's breaking me and what does potential future happiness do for me when I'm suffering so much in the moment and have nothing that makes it bearable.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Life is a fate much worse than death for some people.
Everyone knows this. Everyone.

Even having the option of voluntary assisted euthanasia would make our lives easier. But they deny us that. They know that we live in absolute hell but they do not want to let us out. They get a perverse thrill from seeing people suffer terribly. No matter what they say , they do.

We all know the 21st century is uniquely toxic and damaging to the human spirit and that no one who doesn't want to be here shouldn't have to be.

 

[shroomia]

I really don't know what to do rn
It feels like I'm running away from a massive storm that's eventually gonna catch up to me and swallow me whole. Event after event is piling up and I feel like Im not in control anymore. I'm only reacting and unable to stop this tsunami. My mental health has been on a downward spiral the entire year and I feel like it's just getting worse. I push everything in front of me desperately trying to not think about it and distract myself. But I don't know for how much longer I can keep that up. I feel like things are slowly catching up to me and I'm really scared it's gonna be my end.