Why do you wish to die?

[Ww42]

Deep down, what really makes you want to die, besides the depression or loneliness, anxiety etc. What deep down is pushing you to suicide? For me personally aside from the severe depression and me being a failure, death just calls to me. It has ever since i was 12 and first started fantasizing about getting a gun and shooting myself. I think i was just not made for this life, and so death calls me. What about you all?

 

[FitsTime]

I hate my life and the place i live in. I deserve better.

 

[Bed]

I've been depressed since i was an early teen but what really destroyed me is my health deteriorating and being in almost 24/7 physical pain. i can't imagine living like this with it most likely getting worse down the line.

 

[Darkover]

nobody cares about me no love interests that's the reason I became suicide in the first place, having terrible physical health and brain injury

 

[dragonofenvy]

I had a sense during my pre-teens that I wasn't made to belong in this world. Despite that, I tried to fit into it, tried to do all the right things, and be a good person. Then I started seeing just how much good people were put down, while it seemed that the nasty, vile people always seemed to be doing well. When all I want is just a little bit better day it's unachievable and it always was so frustrating that I couldn't get what I wanted, but terrible people could get anything they wanted. I'm just hoping that when my life ends things will be just a little bit better.

 

[Ephemeron]

Trauma that will never go away and makes normal life almost impossible. Every day is hell. Destroyed my only chance at happiness years ago.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I just don't have any interest in suffering for decades just to be tormented by old age and die anyway. And for me suicide is rational as it's the way to prevent all future unnecessary suffering in an existence I never saw as desirable in the first place, suicide is the way to escape from the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human.

There are no disadvantages to not-existing which is the fate we are destined for anyway yet in existence there is unlimited potential for pain, torment and harm. I see existence as very undesirable, harmful and evil, I'd see it as better to not exist regardless of the circumstances.

It disturbs me how there is no limit as to how much a human can suffer, existence truly is an abomination, I'd say that for me my wish to die is a result of becoming aware of how existence itself really is the true problem, I find it tragic how humans so harmfully impose existence in the first place. But it's also down to the fact that I don't want to suffer and see all suffering as best avoided.

 

[Life_and_Death]

humans

i try and try and try...but im mean....fuck, im literally being harassed because someone would rather act like a 2yo than just turn his music down a couple notches
fucking humans

 

[LuvMeMusic]

Boredom and laziness, I guess. Nothing exiting enough to live for and I'm too lazy to work or something, so suicide is the only option. I don't suffer from any mental health problems, so it really just boils down to those two things.

 

[strangelife]

Problem is my state of health, my condition makes life impossible.

 

[achb]

Dissatisfaction. I don't think even if all my dreams came true that I'd actually prefer living to nonexistence. I just don't think I could ever be satisfied. No matter what I do, there's a voice screaming in my head to just die and disappear. I can't be in a constant cycle of colorful bright emotions and sleep it just doesn't work that way. And even if it did, eventually those strong emotions would end up feeling mundane. Nothing is worth it.

 

[Dliena]

Because I've gotten absolutely fucking nowhere with my life it has not benefited me whatsoever living ever also being a sad autistic middle school dropout for having a meltdown and a grade A+++ retard for 22 years just to add to the neverending pile of shits that is me and my life among countless of other atrocities that I've inflicted.
I deserve a painful but guaranteed 𝕯𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖍.

 

[eashanm]

Tri angle for Euthanasia
- Tired of Life
- Health Problems
- Goals

Segregate the issues for Euthanasia.
- Will to live has died. - Tired of life. Done with it.
- Suffering from illnesses
- Suffering from anxiety of living

In short, completed my life. Achieved everything I wanted to.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I wish to be dead because life itself doesn't offer anything to me that makes me think "yeah, I want to live life". I don't have any interests, I don't have anything that I enjoy, I don't even have happiness. All I get from existence is suffering from merely being human. I never wanted to do anything to begin with. I study because of obligation, not because I want to. I don't want to do anything in life and I never did. Life just isn't for me

 

[heisenberg]

i've felt this way since i was 13. i simply just don't think i was ever meant to be around for long. i don't want to live in a society that i'll have to struggle just to get by either. there's nothing for me in this life.

 

[divinemistress36]

Treatment resistant depression and brain injury. Everything is meaningless

 

[qsocdu]

I just don't know what else to do with life. I try to do other things but I always come back to this dark place.

 

[Tired_of_myself]

Im tired of trying

 

[CouldaHvBeenARock]

Health problems aside

Failed attempt forced me to live with toxic parents
My parents are pretty much trash that's taken advantage of my mental illness

 

[outrider567]

Girlfriend dead, no reason to go on, everything sucks without her

 

[ctbcat]

it's kind of hard to give a reason that's not linked to my depression, as i've never known a life without it, but... i guess maybe it's just a culmination of all the hurt and self hatred i have. it's all bubbled up under my skin into this sickly monster, and the only way to kill it is to swallow ten knives or kill myself. i could swallow those ten metaphorical knives ('therapy', whatever else in that realm) or i could just end it. ending it seems easier. and maybe it's a pussy thing to choose the easier option. maybe i'm nothing but a cowardiced loser who can't do anything but run. but i will die that same coward, and i will know peace finally...

 

[SillyGirl>_<]

Life is miserable, I'm incredibly lonely all of my "friends" abandoned me, among many other reasons. Sure life could change but no matter how much life changes it'll never compare to the peace of death.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

I got addicted to an over-the-counter nasal spray. After ending this addiction I developed some significant breathing problems and severe erectile dysfunction. To state the obvious, a happy life is inconsistent with either. I'm giving doctors a fair shout at fixing me, but if they can't, I'll be CTB with SN later this year.

 

[sserafim]

A lot of reasons. Mainly ASD though

 

[sorlox]

after so many years, i don't think i have one singular reason, it just feels right and desirable

 

[Bibotik470]

Because I live for the mercy of other people.

They need a punching bag, something small, weak, unappealing in appearance to cause harm towards. To lash out at.

Something to abuse.

I've had enough of the painful encounters, memories of humiliation, the constant reminder that I'm not human. That I never was to begin with.

Maybe if my organs aren't destroyed in whatever method I choose to partake in, they can be donated to save a life or two. Just make myself of actual use once I leave this earth. I think then, my spirit will be at peace.

 

[Raven2]

I'm just tired of life. I'm surprised I've made it this far

 

[Final_Choice]

Several reasons, but main one is a chronic illness with no cure.

 

[wasted_years]

Severe 'Body dysmorphia' is what the ''mental health professionals'' would put it as. We normal people would however would call it having a deformed body.

 

[wagner2029]

insomnia, depression and anxiety, the complete package.
The icing on the cake is that I'm refractory.
I don't know how to say it in English, but in Portuguese it means someone who develops tolerance to all the medicines they take.