Discussion Why do you want to CTB

[Ambivalent1]

To get to the other side

 

[Cinnamorolls]

Loneliness is the main reason. No family, friends, or partner. Can't do anything about the former, and any attempts at the latter two have gone horribly.

Lack of purpose and fulfillment is the other reason. If I could at least have a decent job where I'm appreciated, that could help offset the loneliness, but I've never been able to stay at any job more than a year or two. I'm tired of constantly jumping around.

And the fact that these things have been going on for decades now with no change. Having any hope gets harder once it's been so long.

 

[wanttodie]

sick of life and liv ing dont want to live ny more I want to be dead want to die

 

[b1cycle]

Sexual abuse. I cannot imagine a future where I am loved.

 

[tinydancer]

stupid mistakes I made and having to face its consequences daily and refusing to live in that way.
basically, my life did not turn out as I once imagined and dreamed about... I refuse to live in another way.
the disappointment has taken me over in the form of depression and I am just a shell of the person who I once was.
I cannot go back to the past and I don't want to go to the future
So I keep living in denial in the present, until I find the courage to end it.

Yeah this for me too. Very well put, really sorry for how your life turned out, I know the feelings you describe all too well.

 

[PairOfAirJordan1’s]

A lot of things but mostly the fact that I'm really not special in any way shape or form, I'm pretty bad at anything that I do, and I'm just gonna be an npc for the rest of my life if I don't cut it short

 

[lv-nii]

- My father passed away 5 years ago, he was the only person I trusted the most, I always talked about my problems with him, my mother is a narcissist, so I almost never tell her anything because she always says I exaggerate, or I'm just bad for a moment, she knows about my depression but she thinks it's all bullshit
- I lost most of the meaning of my life
- I have social anxiety, so I usually spend my time in my room using my pc (I work online, so it's more convenient for me)
- I dropout high-school
- I wasted a big part of my life in my bedroom
- My brother is a manipulative bastard