Discussion Why do you think you're still here?

[Gangrel]

family, partner, fear, you know, basic reasons, nothing groundbreaking

 

[Reflection]

A: for some reason I'm still hopeful despite all the signs.
B: Still haven't prepared my method.

 

[Snowstorm]

There are people that still need me, even if it's really hard right now, I can't abandon them.
My brother needs me around, my friends have made it clear that if I was gone that it would ruin so much. I want to sleep but I feel like I need to stay awake.

 

[L'absent]

I'm here because I'm looking for a quick and painless way to leave. Basically I am afraid of suffering. I deeply despise life and have no attachment to this bad place because life is a place of pain... a mass of dissatisfaction and pain where 'happiness' does not exist but is only an illusion. The fear of suffering stops me and nothing else.

 

[egAbwkOofXrX]

Only because successful suicide methods are extremely difficult to pull off, and the only thing worse than living like this would be living the same life but permanently disabled or disfigured.

If there were just a simple "die now" button I would have pressed it years ago, but I'm always afraid my attempts will fail. I don't know the most effective, easiest method still. Or if one exists.

 

[Emeralds]

If I'm going to be honest, it's because a part of me still wants to be here. I can leave anytime that I want to.

 

[Davey40210]

I think I am still here because of SI. Or maybe I am not ready yet.

 

[Just_Another_Person]

Still researching about the method I'm gonna use, choose place, need some parcels to arrive and still want to live one more.

 

[Thisisnotaname]

I'm still here bc of my mother. Each times she Ask me for recovery I always say that "I don't give a fuck with this whole life" and she cry. I'm ok with the fact a mother trully love her child and she can be affected.... So I'm fucking still here for now

 

[yxmux]

Mostly irrational hope. Little pleasures were also a thing keeping me alive, but I do not feel them anymore. I have been working on convincing myself that I am one of those people who are on are on the trajectory to and are supposed to CTB. I just need the drive. I plan on hanging myself in the room I'm living in sooner or later.

Edit: It's also helpful knowing that the prognosis for people like me is poor.

 

[MentalFuneral]

Killing yourself is hard

 

[dz.bouquet]

My small hobbies, solitude walks and other small pleasures that I have left in life.

Desperately holding on, but it's guaranteed that I will lose my grip in a few years.
I just can't imagine living a full life anymore.

I attempted to exit twice, but as usual, I failed at those too.