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death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
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I don't get it. It seems like the majority of humans want to reach their full potential and be the best that they can be. Why? It even seems like a lot of SaSu members here are, or at least were, the same in that regard.
In my case, I never really had much potential to begin with due to my autism but, even so, I know that I have at least some potential yet I never had an interest in reaching it. In fact, I always had an interest in me being in complete inertia... I never wanted to achieve my best because such a thing sounds exhausting to do. If I could spend my entire life rotting away alone, I would. I have no interests in being a machine to do nothing but be the best that I can.
I think that life is too exhausting and demanding from me. Life truly is tiring. I wish I could be dead so that I don't have to work and that I don't have to put any effort in at all. I believe that death is perfect for me because me being dead is the only state where I don't have to work and tire myself out. I'd especially not be forced to achieve my best self by society because there wouldn't be a me to begin with
In my case, I never really had much potential to begin with due to my autism but, even so, I know that I have at least some potential yet I never had an interest in reaching it. In fact, I always had an interest in me being in complete inertia... I never wanted to achieve my best because such a thing sounds exhausting to do. If I could spend my entire life rotting away alone, I would. I have no interests in being a machine to do nothing but be the best that I can.
I think that life is too exhausting and demanding from me. Life truly is tiring. I wish I could be dead so that I don't have to work and that I don't have to put any effort in at all. I believe that death is perfect for me because me being dead is the only state where I don't have to work and tire myself out. I'd especially not be forced to achieve my best self by society because there wouldn't be a me to begin with