The nothingness of death can be daunting, guilt of leaving people behind those can be a pain to overcome. If I ever get the job done it will be because I've figured out how to block off my carotids properly, few times I have had a noose around my neck with bedsheets I think I fucked up the knot because I was conscious for minutes and stopped. Some technical skills applied properly would hopefully get the job done quickly and the speed would hopefully take away some of those fears and doubts