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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
No easy way to ctb and wishes for an early demise just won't come true. I do not want for my life to continue another day it is awful and I am miserable after everything that has happened. So much loss and heartbreak. A lot of money would fix a great deal of if. But now I'm dealing with really bad nerve pain and other physical illness as well. I just want to die. With my luck, ill end up just debilitated for 35 more years.
I haven't been able to find the will to ctb.
 
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Sparx

Specialist
Jan 4, 2023
324
I understand this, I wish we could just go straight to the 'being dead' part without actually having to go through the process of ctb.
 
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GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,881
The escape from this planet must be earned. You have to earn it, you have to deserve it. That's how it works at the moment.

I hope that in the future it will be as easy as going to Switzerland and stepping into a Sarco.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
I just don't understand why I'm in this situation. All I know is I want out
The escape from this planet must be earned. You have to earn it, you have to deserve it. That's how it works at the moment.

I hope that in the future it will be as easy as going to Switzerland and stepping into a Sarco.
No kidding.
Almost feel like this is karma or something. I'm just miserable
Almost feel like this is karma or something. I'm just miserable
 
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ChildrensITV

ChildrensITV

Arcanist
Mar 14, 2023
455
The escape from this planet must be earned. You have to earn it, you have to deserve it. That's how it works at the moment.

I hope that in the future it will be as easy as going to Switzerland and stepping into a Sarco.

Don't count on that anytime soon.
 
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GasMonkey

GasMonkey

Nitrogen Master Race
May 15, 2022
1,881
I don't need to count on anything, my setup is so good that I wouldn't go to Switzerland even if it was available LOL.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,966
I really despise how we exist in a world where there is no straightforward way to die, it's horrible how people are trapped here against their wishes, slaves to their suffering. It's such a hellish world where we cannot just pass away in peace without risks and complications, I also fear being stuck here for potentially decades, it's all just so dreadful.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
I don't need to count on anything, my setup is so good that I wouldn't go to Switzerland even if it was available LOL.
I saw your post. I've considered gas. I know it'd be painless but I'd want to do it away from home
. Anything I do I would want to do away from home, biggest reason I really don't want someine I know finding me.