I've struggled with thoughts of suicide for some time, but I've more often than not managed to talk myself down rather than anything causing injury happening. But most people in the world...seem to not realize that even a failed attempt is something drowning in self-hatred and feeling hopeless an very possibly meaning an internal battle with yourself to STOP the suicidal thoughts from getting their way and compelling you into harmful behaviors.
I'm already mentally/emotionally in tatters and hiding that under pretending that I'm perfectly fine. That I and other suicidal people need a therapist, but we also have to believe that a world that's already classified us as 'difficult' or 'burdens' can accept us and that the fact that we're able to recover and heal, that it's possible to put an end to self-ending beliefs and we're being genuine in our telliNG another person that we've come to recognize the world wishing that anyone who is open about struggling with SI is better off being succcessful, There's one or two people that don't think that way and have no full grasp that most of the world are crueler than that, or that none of us who are in such a dark place are trying to harm those we care abojut....we genuinely believe that our loved ones are better off without our existing because of how much trouble it piles onto their lives.
I need somewhere to talk about this stuff since I don't want to make the gorier details part of having to mention it otherwise;
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I'm already mentally/emotionally in tatters and hiding that under pretending that I'm perfectly fine. That I and other suicidal people need a therapist, but we also have to believe that a world that's already classified us as 'difficult' or 'burdens' can accept us and that the fact that we're able to recover and heal, that it's possible to put an end to self-ending beliefs and we're being genuine in our telliNG another person that we've come to recognize the world wishing that anyone who is open about struggling with SI is better off being succcessful, There's one or two people that don't think that way and have no full grasp that most of the world are crueler than that, or that none of us who are in such a dark place are trying to harm those we care abojut....we genuinely believe that our loved ones are better off without our existing because of how much trouble it piles onto their lives.
I need somewhere to talk about this stuff since I don't want to make the gorier details part of having to mention it otherwise;
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