Why are my emotions so erratic amd intense?

[dying_kwik2000]

I can't have bpd because I don't struggle with having a fragmented sense of self. Buy today I started hyperventilating and panicking when my sister didn't let me go to the bank. I earlier had a conversation with my other sister that made her feel disappointed and I was filled with overwhelming feelings that she was angry at me and hated me and that I ruined her life. I don't know why I feel like negative emotions feel so sticky like they can't go away. I started panicking and crying and screaming from overwhelmed because my mother made it worse. I ended up just cutting myself to feel better. I don't know what's wrong with me.

 

[Endisclose]

I can't have bpd because I don't struggle with having a fragmented sense of self. Buy today I started hyperventilating and panicking when my sister didn't let me go to the bank. I earlier had a conversation with my other sister that made her feel disappointed and I was filled with overwhelming feelings that she was angry at me and hated me and that I ruined her life. I don't know why I feel like negative emotions feel so sticky like they can't go away. I started panicking and crying and screaming from overwhelmed because my mother made it worse. I ended up just cutting myself to feel better. I don't know what's wrong with me.

I think there are only about 9 major disorders. It may be a good idea to look up symptoms of each, then note down your behavioural symptoms over a period of time and see if you can find a match. The key signs of BPD for me are splitting and shooting anger like from 0 to 100 in a second.

I've tried to control the emotional dysregulation but sometimes the emotion is so overwhelming and strong one feels helpless and is over me before I could even realize it. The hyperventilating and panicking seems like PTSD. Did you mean your sister didn't let you go alone or go with her?

 

[deeprootdisease]

sorry if it's too personal, but what do you mean you don't have a fragmented sense of self?

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

a lot of my discord friends have been telling me that i need to get therapy or something, and they're probably right. i might be bipolar

 

[Endisclose]

I forgot to add fear of abandonment is a major indicator of BPD..If your sister didn't let you go with her, it could be fear of abandonment. If she didn't let you go by yourself, that's suppression of agency - I dunno what it would mean in that case but it does explain the emotional dysregulation..