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antinatalist123
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- Oct 6, 2020
- 16
I will leave the psych ward tomorrow and I'm fairly certain of killing myself with sodium nitrite when it arrives soon. But my life has gotten better. I have caring friends, my parents aren't bad people, and my mood is good, best in a long time. I make plans with friends such as English tutoring and hanging out like I'm not suicidal, even though I would not finish these plans.
Maybe I have experienced enough pain to distrust the recent improvement. At any rate I yearn for the nothingness. Even though it would hurt and inconvenience my family and friends.
Maybe I have experienced enough pain to distrust the recent improvement. At any rate I yearn for the nothingness. Even though it would hurt and inconvenience my family and friends.