Why am I so hesitant?

[adios]

I want to ctb more than anything else but I still wonder about what I might be missing if I die now. Does anyone else experience this?

 

[ConfuseTHEneck]

I feel ya there. It's considered common to be hesitant when desperately wanting to ctb. We are so used to being alive, it makes us become reluctant to cease our existence. I hope this helps.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yeahp, I do!
I wonder if the human race will reach Mars, about the ending of some tv shows, technology improvements, etc!

Still, I'll be gone next year no matter what. (or I'll go mad and end up in a psych ward forever and ever.)

 

[Ghost2211]

Yes, this is a very normal feeling and common feeling.

 

[justanotherstar]

Yeah I think it's a normal part of the process. We are human after all, nothing is black and white

 

[foxdie]

Because you're human. I feel it too, totally normal and to be expected tbh.

 

[signifying nothing]

Yeah, conflicting and changing thoughts and emotions, in tension and interacting with one another, all together trying to find some sort of mental balance, some resolution. It can take some time to really think things through and even then...

 

[Nymph]

Yeah, sometimes I think about the songs I'll miss from my favorite artists or new games like bioshock 4

 

[adios]

Thank you guys for all responding. I definitely relate to wanting to see the way my interests will play out(my favorite shows and cool things). I also sometimes feel like maybe I shouldn't give up, but at the same time I know it won't matter if I try anyways. Idk...

 

[muffin222]

You're not ready. That's normal- that's ordinary