Venting Why am I like this (part 2)

[Painless_end]

Weakness is death.

I can't grow anymore. What a horrible life. I never asked for this.

I would have been happy to die, instead I am here doing this crap.

It's the worst crap than I could've imagined.

I am now more convinced that I have committed a serious error. And I don't want to live through it anymore.

I should've taken the chance when I had it to do that thing. Yes it was frightful, but it was better than this crap here.

My life is pathetic and destroyed now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do get that it's so awful and tiring feeling trapped in an existence that you hate, it really is tragic how all of this endless suffering continues to exist in this world. It's such a cruel existence and at least to me it makes sense wishing to leave this world to avoid all inevitable future torment. But I certainly do hate the fact how it's this difficult to voluntarily die.