@SomewhatLoved
For some reason, I discovered your account and your posts only a few weeks ago, and you almost immediately became one of my favourite people on this forum, if not the favourite.
I am so sorry that you are suffering so much...
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You seem to be such a wonderful, amazing, valuable, sensitive person...
Of all of us, you are the one who deserves it the least to suffer so much...
I hope that your life will change somehow and that you will be able to be as happy as you deserve to be.