I'm not sure that I do hate them. It's more that I'm trying not to think about them. But, it would be the person I grew up with who caused me to first have suicidal thoughts.
Because of bullying, gaslighting, lying about me. (I believe there were/ are a narcissist.) I suppose I want them to experience the same thing. For someone to falsely accuse them of things so they can see how it feels. Plus, all the other bullying.
There again, I think if they were actually persecuted, they would turn even more hostile and volatile and I'd pity anyone on the receiving end of that. Plus, I'd be fearful it would be turned on me again. My mind has built this person up to be a complete monster to be honest.
What I wish more than anything is that we'd never even met. I'm sure they feel the same way- to be fair. I'd still argue that they were the aggressor but, I'm sure life was no picnic for them either at that point. I'm not generous enough to feel sympathy though.
This phrase sums it up though:
'I envy people who haven't met you.'