Who would say sleep is the closest they can get currently?

[Daryl72]

For whatever reason, you can't end it all so sleep is the next best thing to escaping the severe pain you are dealing with. I know for me, I beg for mercy before had. that I will not wake up, yet I always do. I guess that does there truly is no mercy in this world.

 

[Daryl72]

Me it's the only escape I can.get with no means t numb my pain..It feels as if the walls are closing in and even sleep sometimes brings with it nightmares.

 

[emptyenvelopes]

Me, but it makes waking up really painful. Like I hate waking up because it's in that moment of coming back to consciousness that I am aware of feeling nothing for just a few seconds and then the sadness and stress just slams into me. And it hurts worse because it's such an abrupt shift in losing that peace I only feel in sleep.

 

[Daryl72]

You

Me, but it makes waking up really painful. Like I hate waking up because it's in that moment of coming back to consciousness that I am aware of feeling nothing for just a few seconds and then the sadness and stress just slams into me. And it hurts worse because it's such an abrupt shift in losing that peace I only feel in sleep.

really summed it up perfectly there. Exactly how I feel as well.

 

[emptyenvelopes]

You

really summed it up perfectly there. Exactly how I feel as well.

It's so awful, it's the worst way to start every single day. If you experience this too, how do you cope?

 

[jumpman133]

I absolutely feel like this. I wish I wouldn't wake up.

 

[BadChanges]

loool. I can't even sleep. One hour a night without deep sleep. Just staring at the ceiling.

 

[Daryl72]

loool. I can't even sleep. One hour a night without deep sleep. Just staring at the ceiling.

Gine through many a night like that.

 

[F@#$]

It's so awful, it's the worst way to start every single day. If you experience this too, how do you cope?

Wake 'n bake

 

[N3UR0T1C]

I would say the closest possible thing that you can get to dying while still being alive is surgical anesthesia. No dreaming, no consciousness.

 

[Heyyy]

Yk sleeping is literally my favourite thing to do its a escape for me away from the real world and the abuse sleeping is the most comforting thing tho I'll prolly be gone soon <3

Me, but it makes waking up really painful. Like I hate waking up because it's in that moment of coming back to consciousness that I am aware of feeling nothing for just a few seconds and then the sadness and stress just slams into me. And it hurts worse because it's such an abrupt shift in losing that peace I only feel in sleep.

Yes waking up is soo painful with all the physical and verbal abuse maybe it was all just my fucking fault

 

[Midwest_Indigo]

Yes, lately for me. Today is the first day in awhile I managed to get up BEFORE 2 PM. I've also had a lot of comforting dreams lately, and it hurts to wake up. I want to live in the safety of my dreams. I know that's not the case for many people, especially if they have nightmares, but I keep having reoccurring safe people in my dreams who visit me. Every day I wonder why I woke up. I know I can technically change things and I am aware of what is and isn't in my control, but everyone makes it sound so easy, to just "take one day at a time". No one understands the dread.

 

[Daryl72]

Yes, lately for me. Today is the first day in awhile I managed to get up BEFORE 2 PM. I've also had a lot of comforting dreams lately, and it hurts to wake up. I want to live in the safety of my dreams. I know that's not the case for many people, especially if they have nightmares, but I keep having reoccurring safe people in my dreams who visit me. Every day I wonder why I woke up. I know I can technically change things and I am aware of what is and isn't in my control, but everyone makes it sound so easy, to just "take one day at a time". No one understands the dread.

totally get that, no one does understand or dread.

 

[KillingPain267]

For whatever reason, you can't end it all so sleep is the next best thing to escaping the severe pain you are dealing with. I know for me, I beg for mercy before had. that I will not wake up, yet I always do. I guess that does there truly is no mercy in this world.

Jokes on you, I cannot sleep. I got sleeping plls which help, but now my family found then and think they are hard drugs. They are impossible to eason with scientifically. I hate them so much.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Sleeping is my only way to cope

 

[bitofftoomuch]

Sometimes I even feel good during the first few minutes of waking up. Then I remember all the shit I'm dealing with.

My stressors make me want to CTB now but I have things I want to do in August and September. I don't know how I will feel after that, but I hope it's either well enough to enjoy life, or clear enough about my suffering to get everything over with.

 

[Rocinante]

I hate sleep to be honest. It's an elapse of time that doesn't exist

 

[divinemistress87]

Sleep is like being dead without the commitment . I love dreaming always full of adventures

 

[Edpal247]

Sleep is AWESOME! Which I could just sleep forever.