Who will you be leaving a note for?

[BrainSplatter]

Who will you be leaving a email or note or video message for?

I wrote out a email yesterday to send to the professionals in my life I thought I'd start with them first as my friends and family will be much more in depth and personalised and then I thought would it really help is it pointless does everyone deserve a explanation or some note saying something like I hope they find comfort knowing I'm at peace.

Someone I dated college who passed away recently it was really unexpected heart attack at the gym no health issues anyway I was hit deeply by his passing I haven't actually seen him in 4 years but the time we spend together the cherished moments I do miss him

Now it's made me think ok maybe I should leave a note for my past lovers like even though things went sour we don't talk anymore I guess they might still feel sorrow after hearing about my death I want everyone to know I'm at peace now this is what I wanted and that it wasn't a light decision something I'd been contemplating for some time.

Some people speak about journaling or writing themselves a message or note too.. idk if this is something I'll do but I'm considering it I don't know where I'd start idk if it would bring me any comfort reading it to myself before I die it seems rather pointless but I'll see

 

[NoHorizon]

Probably nobody. I know that's unhelpful to my loved ones but I wouldn't know what to say so I think it's best I just die quietly.

 

[BrainSplatter]

Probably nobody. I know that's unhelpful to my loved ones but I wouldn't know what to say so I think it's best I just die quietly.

I hear you, I forgot to add that as an option it was definitely something I was considering also. It's hard to put into words exactly what I even want to say but my young child will need it I know that I'm sure it'll be very hard for them to comprehend

 

[FrustratedGirl]

I wrote one letter and took a video for friends and family together. Not very long but some last wishes, saying sorry, they should be happy for me, it's not their fault (not completely true) and that they should carry on. And then I took a Video for the Person I had a (not so good defined) relationship with this year, that ended very unpleasant and sad, saying I am thankful for the time, wishing her people who are good for her and saying it's not her fault, I would have done it anyway.

 

[woodlandcreature]

i mean…i might write something for a few folks on here, but i have no one irl who would care.

 

[carterprobs]

I wrote a letter for my best friend but I don't know if I'll send it or not. I think sometimes it's easier to let people fill in the blanks about you, believe what they want to believe. The only thing making me want to send it is, I want him to know there's nothing he could have done, not to blame himself, those things

 

[orca1717]

In real life I don't really have anyone so no real need on that front. Ill throw out some words on here beforehand I think, might be nice to share a little about myself when it's time.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I will not be leaving a note to anyone, as I plan to make my suicide look like i overdosed on some drugs. My parents will be less sad if they think that i died of overdose than suicide. That's why im staging all of that.

 

[BrainSplatter]

I wrote one letter and took a video for friends and family together. Not very long but some last wishes, saying sorry, they should be happy for me, it's not their fault (not completely true) and that they should carry on. And then I took a Video for the Person I had a (not so good defined) relationship with this year, that ended very unpleasant and sad, saying I am thankful for the time, wishing her people who are good for her and saying it's not her fault, I would have done it anyway.

I'm questioning that myself whether to leave anything for my ex's specifically the ones that were never really that good from the beginning with very few good memories. I need to remember I'm doing this for me nevermind how they feel it's how I feel that really matters someone just said to me choose whoever you think is important right now and does it feel right or am I doing it out of guilt or trying to plaster old wounds no note or message will change what happened it's not like anyone will read it and suddenly like that they're spiritually changed. I feel like I'm doing it more so for my own peace of mind this is about me and to finally CTB I have to do it first otherwise then nothings holding me back I can be free