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akosineenee
Invisible idiot
- Aug 22, 2018
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My relatives are well aware of my struggles with mental health issues and my failed attempts throughout grade school to high school. It wasn't until college that I had some semblance of normality and was functioning well enough that they thought I've 'recovered'. I was only pushing through life back then because of my parents and that small sliver of hope that maybe it will get better. Obviously, it didn't (and it never will). I haven't told anybody about my current plans to ctb. If I'm successful, it will come as no surprise.Who in your life, aside from this forum, knows your intent to CTB?
I have two who know. One is supportive in the sense of respecting my decision although they aren't happy about it; the other knows and doesn't comment.
I've distanced myself from friends. Our paths would cross from time to time but I don't actively seek any of them out. Only my ex-best friend knows that I would ctb no matter what; but as he had inform me, if he found out I ctb he would 'spit on my grave' and if he could he would 'crush my pathetic depressed head with his boots'. Fun fact, he's currently pursuing his doctorate on psychology.