Discussion Who else literally doesn’t care about life anymore?

[M48 Patton]

When I don't have my health everything seems just so pointless.

Who else just doesn't care about doing anything in life anymore? Just want to crawl into bed and never wake up?

 

[spiraloutdeath]

Yes i do… before my current health conditions.. i loved being alive.. i even had some bad stuff happen health wise but i could find internal peace and I know i could heal..

The current ones are unknown and every day is a black day.. no light … and i have this feeling of not wanting to be here any more… its so strong too

 

[Ihoujin]

I kinda enjoy this state now. Whole life of pursuing trivial things and goals, trying to please people and meet their expectations. It had to stopped, really. Taking shower, even eating is trivial now. Who cares. It's a well-deserved rest for me to contemplate death.

 

[M48 Patton]

Lots of things seem inconsequential and meaningless when you don't have what you actually want I guess

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I never cared about doing anything in life in the first place

 

[DeadFlowers]

I don't care about it anymore and would love to just end it. I'm ready for the next whatever. The problem is my damn body - it's becoming complete piece of crap but still has a strong flipping survival instinct!

 

[KillingPain267]

When I don't have my health everything seems just so pointless.

Who else just doesn't care about doing anything in life anymore? Just want to crawl into bed and never wake up?

Yeah, nothing makes sense. I'm only thinking about which ctb method to use.

 

[lacrimosa]

I passively care and let the boat go where the water carries me. That's all. Whatever happens happens and that's okay and I'm here to experience it, until I can't anymore.

 

[hematomatema]

i dont mean to be rude but i sincerely hope that anyone who cares about life isn't on a website called "Sanctioned Suicide" on a forum called "Suicide Discussion"

 

[divinemistress87]

Havent cared in years

 

[dragonofenvy]

I don't have anything to try to work towards because everything I've tried working towards has never worked out. I don't remember what being content and looking forward to things is like. At 23 I feel like I've done everything I'll ever be able to do, and yet haven't experienced so many basic things that others have, but I know that I'm not able to do it. I haven't had meaningful contact with another human for almost five years and just sit in my apartment every day when I'm not having to go to work. If there's nothing to work towards and you feel crappy then there's just no point. I'm just checked out and don't want to participate anymore but have to because otherwise things will get much worse.

 

[Seered Doom]

The monotony overtakes me into not giving a singular shit for quite a long time now.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Who else literally doesn't care about life anymore?

Me me me me me me me me.
I hate it !!! Should never have been forced into this horrible world.

 

[M48 Patton]

i dont mean to be rude but i sincerely hope that anyone who cares about life isn't on a website called "Sanctioned Suicide" on a forum called "Suicide Discussion"

No you're not rude at all, you make 100% total sense. So Yeah don't get me wrong, with me being on here it would make sense I have given up to a certain degree although I still think it's good there is a recovery section and this site is all about freedom and choice and I would hope not everyone on here has to CTB. But I get if you do. Again I believe in a choice and having free will. Im not one to take people's choice away I'm just at a point where I can't see anything positive anymore.

 

[kyhoti]

Me right here. I'll find myself geeking on some topic or item or lifestyle, then realize that it's something for the living to pursue. I'm effectively dead. No bucket list to comfort me, no recovery is currently visible*. There's no point to things. The only reason I'm still sucking air is that my preparations are not complete. I just hope I have enough time to make the proper arrangements.

*I still attend 12-Step recovery meetings, not in the hope of finding a life worth living, but to prevent myself from dying high.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Conflicted...

...I care about my life because there are many things that I want to do which are enjoyable; I do not care about my life because there are many things which are painful. Death will waste potential when it could have been used for something constructive; life will waste time on an existence and personality that will eventually be erased.