Discussion who else just feels like just rotting away all day

[deadngoresurgery]

I feel like rotting away. just laying in my bed all fucking day. i have stuff i need to do, but i don't want to do anything. i just wanna self harm and stare off into space. if i do that, my thoughts will become worse because then ill be thinking of myself as a bum. i need to be distracted constantly from my pain, but theres nothing much to do here. i dont feel good, i just wanna die, but i have work i have to do, chores i need to do in my dorm. but i just wanna lay here and rot all day. i just wanna sit here and do fucking nothing. i wanna ignore all my responsibilities, i just wanna be a fucking loser, a fucking bum who does nothing all day except self harm and think about killing herself. im just a fuck up, all i do is fuck things up and im not even interesting at all, i cant bring myself to talk about certain topics with certain people because im too pussy to do it and i fear what they say. i fucking hate this, i just wanna die. i wanna lay here stuck in my bed, lazy as fuck, not doing anything. i want my body to decompose like hell. i cant even do anything i enjoy anymore, i simply cant enjoy it. i cant find enjoyment in anything and i just want to fucking die.

anyone else feel the same?

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i feel this too, i barely do anything. i struggle to even get up for bathroom, water and food. much less get stuff done. im trying so hard, but to everyone else, it looks just the same as not trying at all. i hate it.

 

[BunBun]

I do too. It kinda sucks trying to do anything productive when all you can think about is "well I'm going to die anyway, so it doesn't matter that I do X"

Sometimes if I really need to do something. I just stare at the wall trying to ignore it lol.

 

[Spite]

If I wasn't forced to go to work almost every day of the week, I absolutely would spend almost all of my time rotting in bed. A lot of the time I wish I could sleep my life away. I also hate having responsibilities and having to do chores and other things. One of the main lights in my house has been busted for over a month now and I can't even be bothered to fix it. My house is a mess in general and I don't care enough to clean it. I just don't care.

 

[esotericaa]

yeah 100%. yesterday i got up at 1 pm to play on my laptop in bed for 6 hours, then i laid down for a few hours and then i got on my laptop again until i was on my phone till 5 am. i didnt even leave my room or see my family, and its like looking at yourself from above you can see how miserable and pathetic it is for your life to be like that, but its just so hard to do anything else

 

[deadngoresurgery]

If I wasn't forced to go to work almost every day of the week, I absolutely would spend almost all of my time rotting in bed. A lot of the time I wish I could sleep my life away. I also hate having responsibilities and having to do chores and other things. One of the main lights in my house has been busted for over a month now and I can't even be bothered to fix it. My house is a mess in general and I don't care enough to clean it. I just don't care.

same here. i havent washed my hair in weeks because i just cant be bothered to. my dorm is a mess too but i dont care

yeah 100%. yesterday i got up at 1 pm to play on my laptop in bed for 6 hours, then i laid down for a few hours and then i got on my laptop again until i was on my phone till 5 am. i didnt even leave my room or see my family, and its like looking at yourself from above you can see how miserable and pathetic it is for your life to be like that, but its just so hard to do anything else

reading this gives me anxiety because it genuinely feels like i need to do something and if i dont, my life will for real be ruined and then i feel like a fucking bum and a fuck up and i just wanna die. i understand you tho, thats how it would be for me too at times

 

[valar_morghulis21]

I feel like rotting away. just laying in my bed all fucking day. i have stuff i need to do, but i don't want to do anything. i just wanna self harm and stare off into space. if i do that, my thoughts will become worse because then ill be thinking of myself as a bum. i need to be distracted constantly from my pain, but theres nothing much to do here. i dont feel good, i just wanna die, but i have work i have to do, chores i need to do in my dorm. but i just wanna lay here and rot all day. i just wanna sit here and do fucking nothing. i wanna ignore all my responsibilities, i just wanna be a fucking loser, a fucking bum who does nothing all day except self harm and think about killing herself. im just a fuck up, all i do is fuck things up and im not even interesting at all, i cant bring myself to talk about certain topics with certain people because im too pussy to do it and i fear what they say. i fucking hate this, i just wanna die. i wanna lay here stuck in my bed, lazy as fuck, not doing anything. i want my body to decompose like hell. i cant even do anything i enjoy anymore, i simply cant enjoy it. i cant find enjoyment in anything and i just want to fucking die.

anyone else feel the same?

That's all I did during the last 3,4 months of summer. Make me love the idea of dying and never have to wake up again. Now I'm back to uni and gotta drag my corpse around, pretend like everything is fine. But at least I don't feel any emotions anymore, so it helps when I gotta focus and study for all the nonsense bullshit

 

[deadngoresurgery]

That's all I did during the last 3,4 months of summer. Make me love the idea of dying and never have to wake up again. Now I'm back to uni and gotta drag my corpse around, pretend like everything is fine. But at least I don't feel any emotions anymore, so it helps went I gotta focus and study for all the nonsense bullshit

oh god, how i wish i could just die in my sleep.

 

[Mattew]

It's been almost a month since a quit work because of my mental health. I can't even get up or getting a shower, i just wanna continue like that until i will have to face reality. Yeah it sucks and I'm a fk loser, if i had the courage probably i would kms but for now I dont feel nothing. Even when i scroll the instagram reels and i see people posting happy life, i don't even know how i feel; just a bunch of bad emotions mixed with anxiety. Hopefully i take xan and alcohol together so i feel disconnected to all that shi and i dont feel nothing and sleep all day. What a shame and a waste of human life, i would give it to someone else like a children in the hospital.

 

[deadngoresurgery]

It's been almost a month since a quit work because of my mental health. I can't even get up or getting a shower, i just wanna continue like that until i will have to face reality. Yeah it sucks and I'm a fk loser, if i had the courage probably i would kms but for now I dont feel nothing. Even when i scroll the instagram reels and i see people posting happy life, i don't even know how i feel; just a bunch of bad emotions mixed with anxiety. Hopefully i take xan and alcohol together so i feel disconnected to all that shi and i dont feel nothing and sleep all day. What a shame and a waste of human life, i would give it to someone else like a children in the hospital.

same, if i could give my life away, it would be to a dying child. hopefully, they'll have a better life than me. i just feel anxious as fuck and i really wanna die already. fuck my life. i dont even have a job or anything, i feel like a goddamn loser.

 

[Mattew]

same, if i could give my life away, it wou child. hopefully, they'll have a better life than me. i just feel anxious as fuck and i really

sorry I messed up the answer, I'm too stupid. Yeah i mean, we can recover ur lifes but it will be very hard and difficult and we will need a lot of help because we can t face all this shi alone. But at the end of the day, do u think it's worth it? All this pain and we are gonna die anyway in a way or another. Im 25 and i think my life comes to an end, i dont want to be 30 40 or 50. I didnt even imagine my future after the 18, that's why i didn't even choose a fk college or a career that i love. I will love to end my journey thats it and hopefully lives an happy dream when my soul will left my body