FailureToAll
Student
- Sep 9, 2023
- 114
For me its my mum and my nephew.
For a few years I was living alone and felt that people wouldn't miss me as much as there were used to me being less involved in their lives but since my last suicide attempt I have been living with my mum, her partner and my nephew.
My mum cried and wanted me to move back in so she didn't have to worry about my safety and I couldn't bring myself to fight against it as I felt terrible.
Now I have been living with them for over a year. I feel like it would affect them even more if I die now and at their own house. I don't want them to be the ones that find me. And before I thought my nephew was young enough to forget me quickly and didn't see me enough to even notice I was gone. But now he's used to seeing me everyday. He's 5 so I'm not sure how much he would remember me long term, I wonder what my parents would tell him. I know he asks about me a lot and cries and misses me even if we spend a few days apart for whatever reason so it worries me how he would be if I were to leave and how much harder it would be for my mum if she were reminded of me dying by him asking or talking about me constantly for awhile.
For a few years I was living alone and felt that people wouldn't miss me as much as there were used to me being less involved in their lives but since my last suicide attempt I have been living with my mum, her partner and my nephew.
My mum cried and wanted me to move back in so she didn't have to worry about my safety and I couldn't bring myself to fight against it as I felt terrible.
Now I have been living with them for over a year. I feel like it would affect them even more if I die now and at their own house. I don't want them to be the ones that find me. And before I thought my nephew was young enough to forget me quickly and didn't see me enough to even notice I was gone. But now he's used to seeing me everyday. He's 5 so I'm not sure how much he would remember me long term, I wonder what my parents would tell him. I know he asks about me a lot and cries and misses me even if we spend a few days apart for whatever reason so it worries me how he would be if I were to leave and how much harder it would be for my mum if she were reminded of me dying by him asking or talking about me constantly for awhile.