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degreesoflewdity

degreesoflewdity

i’m filled with hatred and need to die.
Jun 24, 2023
163
seriously, i dont know who i am. i cant describe myself. if someone asks me who i am and to choose words that would be 'me' i wouldnt know what to tell you. why do others say they know who i am? how could you know when not even i do? i wish i had a solid opinion about myself. it depends everyday who i am. one day i could be happy and optimistic. the next i could be planning to end it all. and maybe the next i could feel nothing. this feeling is absolutely scary because i never know who i am when i wake up the next day. I feel like a spectator typing on my phone right now. but tomorrow I'll definitely think, "oh wow, why did i say this? oh i know myself alot!" then the next i'll think "well now why did i say that yesterday? it's the truth, i dont know myself."

hopefully one day i understand
 
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Manfrotto99

Mage
Oct 10, 2023
556
I believe that I don't know myself either. Who I thought I was disappeared a long time ago along with the things that made me happy. I think my dogs knew me better than I know myself.
 
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SuicidalCheese

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Aug 2, 2026
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"With each grain of sand that builds a pillar, another weakness arises, how then can one day they know themselves or another"
-Me, staring into a fish-tank, watching a fish eating its fry
 
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