Discussion While waiting to CTB

[Groovy123]

What does everyone do? Does any seem obsessed with researching methods? Worrying about it not working?

 

[alexithymia]

I'm perpetually scared. Scared of death, scared of an afterlife, scared of still being here. Lately I spend most of my time on this forum and reading about suicide methods.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I'm not afraid of death bc my life is a horrible nightmare. I'm afraid of the ctb process and living after it. I'm bored out of my fking mind waiting

 

[Groovy123]

I'm not afraid of death bc my life is a horrible nightmare. I'm afraid of the ctb process and living after it. I'm bored out of my fking mind waiting

Yes, that's what I most worried about not successful CTB'ing. The nightmare that would be. It's not like I'm not already going through it lol

 

[Empty Smile]

I don't worry about death. I've come to terms with it, I am peaceful with my decision. I have my method(s) and do not try to come up with any new ideas.

Right now it's just the waiting game for me since I have to wait until next year, hopefully early spring. So I unfortunately have to live to see my big 5 0.

In the meantime, I'm gone all week at work, then come home and drink and sleep all weekend. That pretty much sums up my miserable life.

 

[Phoenix1990]

All I think about while waiting to ctb is think about ctb. I imagine how I am going to feel when I am measuring out SN. If I will listen to music, will I cry? will I wish I had someone there to hold my hand, will I know the exact moment that I am passing away and not just passing out. Will I have any regrets. Will I feel at peace once I have ingested SN.

 

[I’vehadenough]

I don't worry about death. I've come to terms with it, I am peaceful with my decision. I have my method(s) and do not try to come up with any new ideas.

Right now it's just the waiting game for me since I have to wait until next year, hopefully early spring. So I unfortunately have to live to see my big 5 0.

In the meantime, I'm gone all week at work, then come home and drink and sleep all weekend. That pretty much sums up my miserable life.

Yeah, that sounds miserable. Unfortunately, my life is worse. I'm forced to live in social isolation. Inhumane. What is your method if you don't mind me asking

 

[Cold]

I'm going on auto pilot, trying not to think too much about anything. I'm also working quite a lot.

 

[Empty Smile]

Yeah, that sounds miserable. Unfortunately, my life is worse. I'm forced to live in social isolation. Inhumane. What is your method if you don't mind me asking

CO in tent. If that fails, hanging.

 

[I’vehadenough]

CO in tent. If that fails, hanging.

Gotcha. I'm just going straight to hanging. Seems to work for all these celebrities lol