Discussion Which year was worst for you?

[Nobeggingformercy]

Overall, 2016. During the first half of the year, my grades were in the shitter(passed though)and socially, I was in a situation similar to the song, White Queen(As It Began). During the back half of the year I started and bottomed out with anorexia. Nothing better than Christmas in the hospital(albeit not a psych ward)

 

[AutumnEmbers]

There are only 38 cases where a person who has been pronounced dead has turned out to be alive, according to wiki.

Aren't those just cases of autoresuscitation (Lazarus syndrome)? That's different to being resuscitated by doctors.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Right now I feel like this year is doing a pretty good job of kicking my ass.

 

[DownInaHole]

2019. Lost my mind.

 

[Xena]

Hands down, 2019. Though late 2018 led up to it. Sometimes I wonder whether I already died and this is hell.

 

[Walilamdzi]

Hands down, 2019. Though late 2018 led up to it. Sometimes I wonder whether I already died and this is hell.

This is definitely the worst year of my life too.

 

[Sailfisher]

Seven months and counting.

 

[Imgonnahangmyself]

Every year gets worse. And it will keep getting worse. Better end it now so I won't have to suffer anymore

 

[Halo13]

I hate to be rude, but I have a hard time believing anybody who says they were pronounced dead. While it can often be hard for doctors to tell if somebody is dead or alive, they won't pronounce a person dead if they think there's even a 0.1% chance that they're actually dead.

There are only 38 cases where a person who has been pronounced dead has turned out to be alive, according to wiki. I'm a little suspicious whenever somebody claims to be from a group of 38 people in the world.

You ARE being rude. I can only go by what I was told once I came out of the coma - it wasn't bragging or an exaggeration. I tend to value the insight of medical professionals over a Wikipedia article. It isn't a competition and frankly, I'm pretty offended as it took years for my brain to function at the capacity it does now from that experience. I shared something traumatic, I didn't ask for your opinion if you believe it.

 

[Empty Smile]

2019. Lost my mind.

Any luck finding it?

 

[SpanishLullaby]

I hate to be rude, but I have a hard time believing anybody who says they were pronounced dead. While it can often be hard for doctors to tell if somebody is dead or alive, they won't pronounce a person dead if they think there's even a 0.1% chance that they're actually dead.

There are only 38 cases where a person who has been pronounced dead has turned out to be alive, according to wiki. I'm a little suspicious whenever somebody claims to be from a group of 38 people in the world.

Is this case included in one of the 38?

Mum's heartbreaking photos of son starved of oxygen after suicide attempt

'I hope that by sharing his story, I can encourage people to talk more about their mental health'

metro.co.uk

I bet not. I think the 38 have other criteria. To be dead means you stopped breathing. To be "pronounced" dead is only a matter of a doctor or coroner saying you are dead and recording a time. Doesn't mean that you didn't die already. If someone continues to resuscitate after you are "pronounced" you can potentially be revived.

 

[Halo13]

Is this case included in one of the 38?

Mum's heartbreaking photos of son starved of oxygen after suicide attempt

'I hope that by sharing his story, I can encourage people to talk more about their mental health'

metro.co.uk

I bet not. I think the 38 have other criteria. To be dead means you stopped breathing. To be "pronounced" dead is only a matter of a doctor or coroner saying you are dead and recording a time. Doesn't mean that you didn't die already. If someone continues to resuscitate after you are "pronounced" you can potentially be revived.

Thank you. I was found on the floor between my bed and dresser on the floor. Later on, my chest felt like an anvil was on top of it from the paddles and my throat was scratchy/sore from them starting an airway to force artificial breathing - tracheal intubation. I was not breathing.

On the subject of brain death, it is likely I had not achieved brain death but was well on my way there.

 

[lllll]

2011, but things haven't really gotten better since then... 2017 was also bad...

 

[Weems]

2018

I also had this "I found god" maniac attack ! Did you do any drugs? For me it was LSD, hash, MDMA, vodka and redbull combined that triggered the attack.
It was very offensive to my family as I thought they wanted to kill me because "I found god" lol.

Long-term pot use, which I had stopped a couple months before. My "improvement" was the psychosis coming on. I was doing well at work, making more friends. Then I went nuts.

Things have more or less gotten worse for me with every passing year since I was 11. That was when the bullying got bad, mental illness kicked in, and my subsequent inability to cope with life began. I went on to make one mistake after another, and my mental illness became progressively worse, culminating in me dropping out of university (several years ago) at the beginning of my final year. Despite all this, I somehow managed to delude myself (in between my bouts of MDD) into believing that I would find a way to turn things around and make up for all my years of loserdom. It was only in November of last year that I fully woke up to the true hopelessness of my situation, which caused me to go spiraling into a desperately suicidal state. I remained in this state up until a couple of months ago, when I started to come to 'peace' (and I use that word very loosely) with the realisation that my life will never be worth living, and that my only real option is to ctb. So, to finally get to the point, the period between late 2018 and early 2019 was the worst for me.

Wow. The similarity of my story to those I see here staggers me.

 

[Mbound]

so hard to choose when they've all been absolutely horrible but in such unique, varied ways :')

 

[Loli]

2010.
The first half of 2010 gave me lifelong trauma, sociopathic tendencies, trust issues, flashbacks, paranoia, isolation, loss of identity, first suicide attempt and dellusions.
The second half is a black hole in my memory.
For some reason it sounds like a twisted cooking recipe.
EDIT: Forgot about meme addiction.

 

[iwannaendme]

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so hard to choose when they've all been absolutely horrible but in such unique, varied ways :')

Lmfao yes, its kinda hard to pick when theres so many fucked up events in every useless year lol xD why there isnt any awards for no1 shit year. Im giving my vote for 2018 lololol

 

[FionaWR]

Last year, definitely.

 

[Siagos]

This one.

 

[Midnight]

Every year it gets a little worse ... Been going on since 2000 give or take. Every year a bit closer .. hopefully rather sooner than later i'll finally get the courage.

 

[Superfluous]

This one as I'm going to end my life soon. Yes, I have regrets but I'm going through with it anyway.

 

[Evident]

2018

 

[AutumnEmbers]

Long-term pot use, which I had stopped a couple months before. My "improvement" was the psychosis coming on. I was doing well at work, making more friends. Then I went nuts.

Wow. The similarity of my story to those I see here staggers me.

I noticed the similarities too. Your posts often stand out to me for that reason.

 

[Kringle's Curse]

2018. Went through most of that year fighting with what I thought was the love of my life.

 

[KadathianStr1d3r]

2009 for right now will remain my most hated year in the time I have spent here, it was the beginning of a decade long sentence that saw my mental state schackled by heavy life burdening mental illnesses and the rapid isolation of myself from the rest of society. I did things that I regretted in 2009 that stilled affect me to this day and I jusy wished that I swallowed the pills in summer of 2013!

 

[Rocksandsand]

Things really started going to shit in 2014. I flunked out of an apprenticeship and was so broke that I was a prostitute for a year which completely fucked my perception of people and humanity. Then my mother died in 2015, and I was raped twice in 2016, so 2017 was spent trying to pick up the pieces of my otherwise shattered mental health. 2018 I attempted suicide twice and spent time in ICU and a psych unit. I haven't been able to attend uni since 2017 I think... so 2019 is probably the worst I have ever felt. I honestly feel like a trapped animal right now - tethered to living by fearing what my death would do to my family and scared about what will happen to my dog if/when I die.

 

[BridgeJumper]

Well Ive wanted to kill myself since like 2007, but 2012 and 2014 are in close tie when it comes to the worst. These were the years that have seen me breaking glass mugs in an isolated cell in psych ward to try and slit my wrists even though I knew it wouldnt work, the years when I would piss under myself because I was too depressed to go to the toilet.

 

[Dartz]

2019

2019

Though 2018, 2016 and 2015 are close runners up

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

As of now, it's this current year. I developed hernias, with one diagnosed. I fear it's gonna get strangulated.

 

[lynn14]

2014. I have felt half dead ever since.