Which method among these? + Presentation

[HowToCTB]

Hi everyone, I am a male of 22 from South Europe.

I have been browsing this website for about a week now, but I felt the impulse of signing up just yesterday (I was worried about the IP thing, as I don't want anyone to prevent me from CTB in case I decided to do it).

I have been exploring various resources. Not only this website and other posts, but also articles of people died accidentally and stuff, and I have made a list of potential methods for myself.

I have learnt that alcohol and water don't mix up well. Apparently, even taking a (iced) bath in my bathtub could kill me, as the being drunk would dilate veins and would make me feel warm even if I am getting into hypothermia.
The opposite is valid (hot bath). I have read it would make me relax so much that my blood pressure would decrease excessively, to the point of making me faint, and drown.

I then read about caffeine. I have a kilo of 99.7% pure caffeine at my disposal. I ask you whether this method would make me suffer too much or not. I read that caffeine overdose can make the heart pump so quickly that, at some point, instead of pumping, it just shivers, so I guess in that case I would faint and my heart would stop moving at all.

I also tried to find N. In particular, I actually have found it in an online vet store, but it requires a professional account, with ID verification. Online, I am afraid of being scammed. Apparently, there are a series of rules to follow here. Don't post pictures of packages and don't ask for sources if your account is too young. While it makes sense, it increases my willing to end it, as even something as simple as getting a source requires investment, when I just want to end it...
So I basically stopped looking for it, unless anyone of you saved me without requiring me to go to Mexico (which I can't do).

I learnt here about SN. It was pretty confusing at first to understand what these letters meant, but I eventually got it. I also have found the Suicide resource compilation, which helped me, too.
The only thing that scares me about SN is the colour change of my body. I don't know. Is it a good method? Is it reliable? I saw that I can buy 100 grams online for about 30 euros. Purity should be >98%. I also read about suicides in Spain, Italy, and other countries, using this method. I am afraid of it not working.

I would also contemplate hanging, but I don't have much skill.

What are your thoughts? What's the most "sure" one, apart from N, unless someone had a reliable source which I doubt?

In an attempt to protect myself from any law issue in this matter, I'll say that this is for myself only and I do not intend to encourage this kind of behaviour.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to the forum. There is not "the best" method. It depends on individual factors, personal preferences and availability.

 

[HowToCTB]

Welcome to the forum. There is not "the best" method. It depends on individual factors, personal preferences and availability.

Hi, thank you. Both for welcoming me and for taking the time to read it.

Availability for caffeine and SN is not an issue at all at the moment. Alcohol isn't either, but I don't have a bathtub this month because I'm not home. Regarding a rope, I don't know what kind of rope would suit best.

I prefer N, but who doesn't... I just don't want to suffer and I want little chance of surviving. Do you have any suggestion?

Thanks

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I think the only reliable method you would have at hand is SN. Caffeine, Alc, won't do the job.

im planning to take 54000mg Caffeine pills tonight

I know it's not the smartest way to ctb and really painful. My options are limited. So im desperate and not looking for something peaceful. This is the only option i have left. The lethal dose of caffeine is around 150-200mg per kg of your weight. So if im 60kg around 12000mg would be lethal...

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Nobody here can suggest which methods you should use bc we're not encouraging anyone. You have to make your own decision and do your own research.

 

[LunarLight]

Hi HowToCTB and welcome to SaSu! The only reliable method you would have is SN. Read the guide carefully and decide what's best for you.

Stan's Guide to SN.

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document has been designed to give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it works and how to use it. It will use the most simplest way of delivering this information as many members do not have English as their first language. Therefore using...

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SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

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Wish you the best whatever you decide to do!

 

[Ash]

Welcome to the forum. As the others have said, only you can decide what is the "best" method for you. It's an entirely personal decision. I know from my previous experience of bungee jumping that jumping wouldn't be for me unless I was faced with the choice of that or the Witchfinder General and a bonfire.

I hope you find peace, whatever you decide.

 

[Worndown]

You can google your various drugs/ingredients to find toxicity and reactions.
I believe caffine is quite toxic in high concentrations. Check it out since you already have it.

N and SN are increasingly difficult to get. They also have specific schedules to be successful.

Hanging is always good but you have caffine.