I continue to daydream about things that won't happen

[Wolf Girl]

I am getting worse everyday.

The only relief I can get is from daydreaming about the person I love. However, this person has left. I am going to reach out to him next week to see if there's a chance of making it right, but I am not particularly hopeful. But I still keep daydreaming about him comforting me. The daydreams are the only time during the day that I can calm down, so I use them to help me sleep at night.

I'm afraid of how it's going to feel when he rejects me next week. I am not prepared for a proper ctb and it's not a good idea for me to jump the gun and end up alive and hospitalized again. But this would be the perfect trigger to help me overcome SI on a harder method like jumping from a bridge. But also, I don't feel fully ready while I'm thinking of it now.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do.

 

[U. A.]

Did you contact him?

 

[eupdplishlp]

I am getting worse everyday.

The only relief I can get is from daydreaming about the person I love. However, this person has left. I am going to reach out to him next week to see if there's a chance of making it right, but I am not particularly hopeful. But I still keep daydreaming about him comforting me. The daydreams are the only time during the day that I can calm down, so I use them to help me sleep at night.

I'm afraid of how it's going to feel when he rejects me next week. I am not prepared for a proper ctb and it's not a good idea for me to jump the gun and end up alive and hospitalized again. But this would be the perfect trigger to help me overcome SI on a harder method like jumping from a bridge. But also, I don't feel fully ready while I'm thinking of it now.

I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do.

maladaptive daydreaming disorder is when someone day dreams for long hours at a time it can be very distracting. Mainly a coping mechanisim it's a form of dissociation I use it in times of stressto calm down. defintley give a research if you feel could be somthing your going through. I'm happy you feel you can reach out to this person and communicate people always value that and whatever happens we will all be here for you either way