Discussion where are you at the ctb-o-meter?

[_Minsk]

yesterday was 5.5-6, today a solid 8, where are you at today?(0:life is beautiful -10: where is my <insert method item(s)> )

 

[GonnaGoBye]

10. Bought my SN, just cant move freely due to pandemic.

 

[MKWRFKLV]

Today about a 6. Yesterday was 8, maybe even 9.

Fuck I just want this to end.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

yesterday was 5.5-6, today a solid 8, where are you at today?(0:life is beautiful -10: where is my <insert method item(s)> )

Psychologically, I'm at 10, practically I'm at 0.
It just seems like an enormous task to settle on a method, then get everything ready to actually go through with it.
I've been thinking SN, but have no idea how to get it as I'm in UK.

 

[EGR92]

10 everyday

 

[Deleted member 17949]

If 0 is being happy with life and not thinking about dying and 10 is being just about to kill yourself I'm at a consistent 8

 

[EmbraceOfTheVoid]

Suicide is inevitable for me and always has been so I'd guess a 10? I'm mostly passively suicidal though and generally don't get strong urges to ctb immediately.

 

[harkovv]

Solid 8. Yesterday was 10 so that's a lil progress.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Suicide is inevitable for me and always has been so I'd guess a 10? I'm mostly passively suicidal though and generally don't get strong urges to ctb immediately.

Hi, can I ask why you have a profile picture of Jamel Debbouze?

 

[lostangel]

7

 

[Isadeth]

It honestly depends on the day and the events involved. I think today would be a 4. So it's one of my better days.

 

[somniummalum]

10, minute SN arrives I go ctb

 

[DeathNoot]

At the moment 6... but I go back and forth like I'm doing the pacer test

 

[LUCIFERYAN]

It's never less than 9, just waiting to get 10 when SN arrives

 

[ZardozOmega]

6.5

 

[Anxietykillsme]

For the last few months, a solid 8. Just waiting for a day where I'm completely at home by myself so I don't get saved.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Currently lulling between 8 and 9 since I have to wait for SN and mitigating circumstances to get to 10.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Currently lulling between 8 and 9 since I have to wait for SN and mitigating circumstances to get to 10.

Do you mind me asking if you ordered SN in Europe?

 

[Sinai Silence]

Do you mind me asking if you ordered SN in Europe?

Hi there, I ordered mine from Russia from I. They have 5 stars on E I won't be able to vouch for it yet though. It won't be here for a while though but I'll be sure to make a post once it arrives.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

Hi there, I ordered mine from Russia from I. They have 5 stars on E I won't be able to vouch for it yet though. It won't be here for a while though but I'll be sure to make a post once it arrives.

Thanks, though I have no idea what all the abbreviations mean (I, E etc.) Is it all on the DW?

 

[Sinai Silence]

Thanks, though I have no idea what all the abbreviations mean (I, E etc.) Is it all on the DW?

Once you get enough posts you can DM me about it, I'm sure its a lot more freely available but its not where I got mine from.

 

[Lorntroubles]

A solid 9.5.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

9

 

[HappyMstake]

I'd say a 9(?) I already have everything ready I'm just waiting until next month.

 

[Baguette]

A consistent 8.5 most days, 9.5 today. Just totally ready to end it all tomorrow hopefully, I'm not though at 10 as I imagine that would mean being in the process of ending your life ASAP. I'm not that desperate that I'm running out of the house at midnight trying to ctb, I'm still in control enough to not want to arouse suspicion and put my plans in jeopardy.

 

[Lmd]

It's never less than 9, just waiting to get 10 when SN arrives

This! Sometimes it's an 8 but nothing less

 

[unwell lady]

9.99 just want right method and don't want to fail again and just end up in hospital

 

[TheSoulless]

Psychologically, I'm at 10, practically I'm at 0.
It just seems like an enormous task to settle on a method, then get everything ready to actually go through with it.

Good description. I feel the same.

 

[unwell lady]

Same here,that is a good description,I got desperate tonight and tried a stupid method which obviously didn't work but I felt that desperate to go,I've contacted dignatis but I haven't got the money :(

 

[Rue89]

10 - If all works out, I'll be gone tomorrow.