iusedtobehappy
Experienced
- Dec 2, 2023
- 236
When you just can't get over something. You just know. You've gotten over so many things and maybe were hanging on by a thread but after waking up crying every day for the last 3 1/2 months you know you tapped out.
I don't know exactly when but I'm going to try to sneak up on it. I have this feeling that the more I think about it the less I feel confident. I'm taking cues from Robin, Kate, Anthony, Chris and Chester. I think they snuck up on it. I get the feeling it wasn't planned. I'll be here until I'm not. I may not post a goodbye thread because that is contradictory to sneaking up on it. But you all are a good bunch of people and I'm so sorry everyone is hurting so much.
No real point to this post other than that. I was crying so hard that typing this helped a little. It's a relief not to have to pretend to be ok for others or wear a fake smile because honestly that is exhausting. If I don't respond it's not that I don't care. I really am just exhausted.
I don't know exactly when but I'm going to try to sneak up on it. I have this feeling that the more I think about it the less I feel confident. I'm taking cues from Robin, Kate, Anthony, Chris and Chester. I think they snuck up on it. I get the feeling it wasn't planned. I'll be here until I'm not. I may not post a goodbye thread because that is contradictory to sneaking up on it. But you all are a good bunch of people and I'm so sorry everyone is hurting so much.
No real point to this post other than that. I was crying so hard that typing this helped a little. It's a relief not to have to pretend to be ok for others or wear a fake smile because honestly that is exhausting. If I don't respond it's not that I don't care. I really am just exhausted.
