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LookingforAnswers

LookingforAnswers

Student
Mar 15, 2022
113
When was the last time life was good for you?

Mine was at a local bar w a reggae band playing and i was belting out Bob Marley. This was June of 2021 about a month before i slid into depression
 
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deadgeorge

Member
May 28, 2022
9
About 4 months ago when my daughter came to life. Ever since it just became worse since I'm constantly fighting the guilt of leaving my daughter without a father the way I was left without one.
 
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befree

befree

Time to do more enjoyable things _____Goodbye_____
Mar 22, 2022
2,585
In the 1990 years. This is not my world anymore.
 
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TrynaChingMyself

Member
Aug 29, 2021
76
Bob Marley appreciation 👍🏽.

Mine was about 2/3 years ago. Woke up early made breakfast for my partner and headed out to my job/uni. The sun was beaming and I think I was listening to Lovely Day (super cliche, now that I'm looking back).

Someone even stepped on my trainers and scuffed it, but I just let it go after making a joke about it.
 
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l0stc4use

l0stc4use

lonely
May 6, 2022
115
maybe when i was a kid and was ignorant of the world. however im not sure because i didn't have a nice childhood. so maybe never.
 
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Foresight

Foresight

Enlightened
Jun 14, 2019
1,393
2010
 
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WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
2014/2015 when I was with a certain someone and it distracted me from my dysphoria. I will never be able to achieve that state of "content" again for multiple reasons.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,823
Life's been good to me since 1987 when I met my girlfriend at college(we were 32 years old, night school), and better when I retired in 1997, and much better still when she retired in 2014--All of that ended suddenly January and my own nightmare began---Still waiting for her big pink Granite headstone I got for her, with a Cross on it
 
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LiquidRat

LiquidRat

New Member
May 25, 2022
4
I am not entirely sure. I have been depressed since I was a child, But I would say a day where I went for a hike in the woods. It was autumn and the trees were a riot of colors. My brother was with me and we had a joyful time throwing leaves at each other.
 
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Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
682
The short 3 months I spent with my first love in late 2018, not knowing has was (very likely) a sociopath. On a much lower scale it was nice when I wasn't ostracized from the world due to the plandemic and was meeting people at our local board games bar. I hope I can find real lasting happiness before it's too late...
 
αmber

αmber

Earth is not my home
Oct 25, 2021
84
July/2016 - December/2019

that was the only period of time when I experienced times of joy and happiness
 
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Lullaby

Lullaby

🌙
Mar 9, 2022
682
February-March of this year.

I had Covid all of January, but things were really starting to pick up, and it felt like everything I had wished for and wanted was starting fall into place.

I was genuinely happy, excited, and hopeful for my future, I think for the first time ever. My dad even told me he had never heard me say those words before, he had never seen me so uplifted.

Everything fell apart and my depression has gotten far worse than I ever imagined it would, but I'll never forget those feelings and those two months…
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I would say I was happy until 2008 when I was hit with genetic skin disorder severe acne. I was okay and on the right track until 2011 when I discovered porn and masturbation and then 2015 when I was taken advantage of by an older man leading to hyper sexual behavior and a one night stand

None of those guys never deserved me. I'm so bitter because I read about all the other girls that were in relationships that were virgin and kept their boundaries I'm jealous of them
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,485
Life has never been a positive experience for me, I have never wanted to live. Even when I was very young, I found death to be comforting. Every moment of my life has been only suffering. To me, there is nothing good about being alive. I do not like thinking, feeling or experiencing things and I simply prefer the sound of non existence. I was never meant for this world and I never should have existed in the first place.
 
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Ninaea

Member
May 10, 2022
16
On a ski trip with my ex, back in 2018. She broke up with me a few months later due to some changes in her personal life. Pure unadulterated euphoria in the snow covered Colorado mountain's. I couldn't fathom how someone could be suicidal, or even depressed or anxious. I was younger and didn't know what I know now, "innocent" if you will…
 
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Slimetae

Slimeent🎲
Apr 23, 2022
203
Well I'm 20 now so like when I was 7 before everything happened.
 
September5th

September5th

You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
May 17, 2022
244
Sometimes life is fun, momentarily. But for the past couple of months, that has become an anomaly.
I miss last year. I miss having a girlfriend and a job. I miss not having depression. I miss online classes as well.
Fuck, I hate where I am right now. Just yesterday I went to drink some beers with my friends and completely fucked up everyday. I have a drinking issue, I guess. Today, my mom decided to go crazy on me. Tomorrow is my birthday :/

Last year I traveled with my ex to a city called Campos do Jordão. It has this "German style" to its architecture (you can Google it). We went up a hill on an ATV, bought a padlock with our names on it, we kissed in the rain... Now that same girl is hanging out with another guys, while the best I can do is to kiss her best friend (I guess I'm that shitty of a person).
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
In 1985-1986, when I was 17/18 years old. Life's been progressively downhill and increasingly miserable and nightmarish since then.
 
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justagreenleaf

justagreenleaf

Student
May 29, 2022
129
Childhood til age 5. Alas...
 
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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,201
Life was always fucked up for me, but I really miss my mother. It's a much darker, lonelier and scarier world without her.
 
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ornitier199

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2022
413
2016
Still remember it well—i still have only a few of commentary videos.
Listening too it i do not recogize the person, i say i was a completely different person back then
-vibrate
-self worth, strong even in my solitude
I never used social media never interested me
Im still the same on that only i made one fatal mistake
Trusted others, met/talked with others
I always knew since then my fate was die by ctb but i rebelled and for that i suffer
Hope i didnt go on a tangent there
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
Life was always fucked up for me, but I really miss my mother. It's a much darker, lonelier and scarier world without her.
I feel you, and I'm so sorry for your loss. My mom passed in 2014 and life has felt, like you said, darker and lonelier and scarier without her. She was my touchstone and grounded me.
 
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HappyForever?

Love from the deepest dream
Feb 14, 2021
326
Before I started caring about relationships.
 
Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
The Christmas before last felt not so bad
 
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jamie_

Specialist
May 21, 2022
336
september 2021 when i moved into a really nice house
 
LookingforAnswers

LookingforAnswers

Student
Mar 15, 2022
113
I would love to chat w people whos lives turned 180 all of a sudden. I feel lost sometimes on this journey as this side of life is so foreign to me
 
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