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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
I feel like I should have ctb 6 years ago but everyones stupid "It gets better" sayings kept me going. When do you feel you should have ctb?
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Visionary
Apr 15, 2024
2,086
When do you feel you should have ctb?
Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
615
I feel like I should have ctb 6 years ago but everyones stupid "It gets better" sayings kept me going. When do you feel you should have ctb?
I should have done it 6 months ago when I understood my health problem is here to stay and I'll begin slowly slowly losing every thing I gained in life. I'll have to do it soon but now Ill be considered a loser.
 
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Innereye

Innereye

Know thy self
Jan 18, 2020
303
I've been in the sunk cost fallacy for a few years now hahaha. But overall I'm glad I'm still around for now.
 
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excinephile

Member
Aug 20, 2024
54
Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.
I feel that. The agony I'm going through is not worth the few cool things I've experienced.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,233
When I was twelve.
 
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hangingonbyathread

Member
Oct 12, 2024
17
Been trying to do so for over 8 years, been "very close" twice (2019 and 2023) and lost count how many times in total I've attempted. The feeling of I should CTB has been lifelong.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.
I feel this I told my mom she should have aborted me
 
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cowboypants

cowboypants

From milkyway
May 7, 2024
567
Ideally when I was 7 yo since it went down hill after that.
 
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anonymous101101

anonymous101101

Member
Jun 29, 2024
13
Before my brother decided to khs.
 
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etherealspring

etherealspring

can someone just kill me already
Mar 27, 2024
281
years agoooo when i had my first suicidal thought at 11
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,405
I should have CTB'd around December 2022 but I got lazy. I also blame Sonic Frontiers and Pokémon Scarlet/Violet for coming out around that time.
 
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Kta1994

Kta1994

Specialist
Apr 25, 2019
347
Last year
 
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excinephile

Member
Aug 20, 2024
54
I basically died last december. Wish my body would realize that and turn itself off.
 
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iwishiwasneverborn2

Member
Oct 10, 2024
7
I feel like I should have ctb 6 years ago but everyones stupid "It gets better" sayings kept me going. When do you feel you should have ctb?
When I saw my sister blue body
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
As early as possible honestly. An earlier death is always better than a later death. I envy kids who died at a "super young" age
 
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mhm-mel

New Member
Sep 29, 2024
3
If we take it like that, whenever would have been fine because of determinism, but my preferred would have been August 2022. Probably a bit earlier, before it hit the fan, but since then specifically has being around completely felt like nothing but a punishment (for my cowardice, I assume).
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,009
I personally never should have suffered in this existence at all, I truly was never meant for something as futile and torturous as existence and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with it, I'd always prefer to die but I really wish I could erase my existence, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering in this existence I never would have wished for.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
1,056
Decades ago
 
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Ironborn

Specialist
Jan 29, 2024
393
A decade ago when the ideation first started, I've just been self destructing since then.
 
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Z-A

Z-A

Let me go
Mar 3, 2024
351
In my case, after graduating elementary school. Been only pain and stress afterwards.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,231
Many times in the past. Always found a reason to kick the can down the road.
 
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lnlybnny

Mage
Jan 25, 2024
545
I truly don't know. As much as I wanted ctb in the last ten years, some really wonderful things happened, which reminded me life can be beautiful. I can't imagine not being around to have lived them. I still want to go but that got me confused. SO confused. Now I don't know what to do. But at the same time I know I need to go.
 
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bugs_for_brains

bugs_for_brains

We can always regroup on the moon <3
Mar 4, 2024
98
when I was 11 and first got suicidal if I'd just accepted it then it would've been so much less complicated
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,405
I should have CTB'd around December 2022 but I got lazy. I also blame Sonic Frontiers and Pokémon Scarlet/Violet for coming out around that time.
I swear my post wasn't supposed to be funny but I'm glad some people found amusement from it. 😅
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,913
Right after I was born and took the first breath. I should have done research in the womb on how to do partial hanging with my umbilical cord. Cursed is the day I was conceived! Cursed is the day my mother said "I am with child"! The pleasures in life are not worth the pains.
I feel this I told my mom she should have aborted me
I swear my post wasn't supposed to be funny but I'm glad some people found amusement from it. 😅
Lol I'm sorry
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,405
Lol I'm sorry
All good, I just found it interesting is all. Sonic Frontiers especially made me question CTB'ing at the time with some of its music and dialogue. It's ridiculous, I know so I can see why people would find it humorous. 😁
 
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Hunter2005

Experienced
Apr 15, 2023
236
Right before the pandemic because things are getting worse for me.
 
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lonergirl_26

Student
Sep 1, 2024
145
11 years ago when I first attempted at the age of 8. It only got worse.
 
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Tig

Tig

Student
Oct 17, 2024
171
9 years ago, when my wife died.
Life is pointless now, just lonliness every minute of the day.
 
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