I have seen interviews with people who survived a jump to say they regretted it the moment they jumped. I expect that's fear kicking in though and SI.
Logically, I feel like a lot of the time that death is my best option. But, if I were in a life threatening situation, I feel it's very possible adrenaline, fear etc. would make me want to try and save myself. Not sure if there would be the space to regret stuff in life but I guess that's also possible. It's our last chance to do it I guess.
What I find more interesting is the figures/ statement that such a small percentage of people who attempt suicide and fail actually go on to die from another suicide attempt. I don't know if I really believe them.
Still- if it's true- why? Did it really shock their whole body into wanting to live? Or, was it just too scary to put themselves through it again? Maybe they finally got the support they needed in life. Who knows? Maybe they just continued feeling suicidal without actually doing it.
I suppose I try to reassure myself that- if I ever muster the courage to do it and if there is pain, fear and regret, hopefully they won't last long at least. Ultimately, I suppose I compare that to what I might very well go through if I remain alive and age, deteriorate in health, have increasing financial worries. I have a feeling the fear of continuing to live will hopefully one day be enough to outweigh that of dying.