I've been planning a date since 2017 and I realized after planning on doing it on my birthday of this year and not following through with it yet again that dates are pointless for me. Something about planning makes me postpone it for some reason. Maybe laziness or doubt? Now I'm just waiting for a tragedy of some kind to happen like another health issue, another mental breakdown, or having money issues or even going homeless. Or perhaps someone I love dying even though that one would take much longer I suppose. Anybody that can follow through with their dates is very determined and without doubt.