Discussion When i think of suicide

[Nanimoaru]

I feel so much joy. Like my suffering is coming to an end soon, I just have to make sure I leave nothing behind. I've said it before but I really idolize Godric from True Blood. He was tired and he met the sun with open arms and his head held high. I want to be like him.
Is it weird to feel this way

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have always felt comforting thinking about suicide or at least to think that if life gets too hard I can always quit.

 

[wanttodie]

agree I feel so much joy. Like my suffering is coming to an end soon,

 

[bigj75]

idk for me I feel like I'm in a nightmare. The risk of failure is so disturbing but at the same time I know I need to ctb or living will get even worse.

 

[blueming]

Suicide is the one thing I'm looking forward to. I also feel happiness and even excitement when I think of dying. It's definitely a comfort to me.

 

[deathoverlife]

I feel so much joy. Like my suffering is coming to an end soon, I just have to make sure I leave nothing behind. I've said it before but I really idolize Godric from True Blood. He was tired and he met the sun with open arms and his head held high. I want to be like him.
Is it weird to feel this way

am completely fascinated by death these days... nothing appeals to me like death..am immersed in reading about after life... listening to audio books and so on...death is blissful... but the thoughts of failing in my attempt are terrifying...

 

[Going Home]

I feel a sense of freedom from men named Jim and Joe and a woman named Mary. No other way.

 

[Lra888]

Same. I've been compulsively reading & listening to podcasts about death—taking in a lot of information about how different cultures / religions view death, afterlife and suicide.

 

[open skyes]

I want to die ...
Am scared of sucide as well. Not coz I will die . Its coz I don't want to fail in.my attempt and end up in hospital

 

[Going Home]

I feel a sense of freedom from men named Jim and Joe and a woman named Mary. No other way.

And others.

 

[Nanimoaru]

am completely fascinated by death these days... nothing appeals to me like death..am immersed in reading about after life... listening to audio books and so on...death is blissful... but the thoughts of failing in my attempt are terrifying...

I definitely understand. I cant wait for all this to be over

 

[Nanimoaru]

I'm just looking forward to the end. Where there is no more pain. No more sadness, no more depression.

 

[Duqu]

Same. I've been compulsively reading & listening to podcasts about death—taking in a lot of information about how different cultures / religions view death, afterlife and suicide.

What podcasts? Just curious; I've not listened to one in quite a while but it sounds great!

 

[deadprincess]

i have a lot of feelings. i feel like i'm being forced to kill myself because i'm so distressed and depressed at the state of my life. it's horrific. i feel sad because i know i'll hurt my friends and i feel scared because i don't know what death will be like. the only thing that makes me feel peaceful is knowing my suffering will end soon and i'll get to be high before i die so i won't care so much.

 

[Lovemykids]

I'm excited that my pain amd suffering will end

My worst enemy in this world is my neuron and emotion that coming from my brain

Worried still until I get hold on N on My hand which will be shipped soon

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I feel pissed off that others are holding me back from it. But I know they're not. I'm using them to hold myself back from it. What a fool.

One day I will wake up and just yell that it must be done. I'll yell it over and over and over until it's finished. That's how I do everything I've ever done. That's probably why they want me to stay alive and keep working. Nobody works like this. You have to be severely disturbed to have this kind of desire to complete tasks.

I'm waiting for that desire to complete the last one. That's the last mystery. When the hell is it getting here?

 

[mish2019]

Suicide is the one thing I'm looking forward to. I also feel happiness and even excitement when I think of dying. It's definitely a comfort to me.

What keeps me from killing myself is that I feel no one will really care. If no one will really care, then why do it ? Just an idea .

 

[Schopenhauer]

What keeps me from killing myself is that I feel no one will really care. If no one will really care, then why do it ? Just an idea .

Would you like to cause pain and grief to other people?

 

[Nanimoaru]

What keeps me from killing myself is that I feel no one will really care. If no one will really care, then why do it ? Just an idea .

I just wanna pass peacefully

 

[Maravillosa]

When I think of ctb, I find it oddly attractive and honorable -- an ambition to be achieved after I have achieved other goalposts in life (my mother's death, publication of a novel). I want my ctb to be a festive occasion, but alas! It will be a celebration à seule.

 

[Nanimoaru]

When I think of ctb, I find it oddly attractive and honorable -- an ambition to be achieved after I have achieved other goalposts in life (my mother's death, publication of a novel). I want my ctb to be a festive occasion, but alas! It will be a celebration à seule.

I admire you

 

[mish2019]

Would you like to cause pain and grief to other people?

I said no one would really care. Pain and Grief to Who ? My Mother, she does not care in fact she would be glad I died !!! What i said was no One would care if I killed myself. But in answer to your question, YES. I would be pleased with the results of causing Pain and Grief to others. The fact that i`m convinced NO ONE would care if I commit suicide is what keeps from doing it !!!! Pain and Grief to who, Police who find the body, they see that all the time. Its just a job, like a janitor, they clean the mess up and go on. My mother would CELEBRATE !!!!

 

[Trashcan]

Ageeed. I'm looking forward to kicking that chair and knowing that after 5-15 seconds, I'll never suffer again. It will be eternal oblivion.

 

[mish2019]

Ageeed. I'm looking forward to kicking that chair and knowing that after 5-15 seconds, I'll never suffer again. It will be eternal oblivion.

Agree also but not so fast. Suicide is a powerful tool. I can wait just a little longer.

 

[Into The Wild]

Part of me feels happy. I know that no matter what it is ALWAYS an option to end my suffering.

But today, I felt genuinely sad. I was editing my suicide note to my ex-girlfriend and friends and I felt very scared and teary because I felt that what I am going to do is inevitable. It has gone past the point of no-return in terms of hope and that really struck me today.

I started to think I might have one last shot, I think. One last roll of the dice. But I know it'll end the same. In heart-break and despair. It'd probably kill me anyway. This time pretty much did. I feel like Boromir in this photo. Shot but fighting on. This is the third arrow.

 

[cupio dissolvi]

freedom, relief and a glorious sense of closure

 

[Mljonzy]

I can't think of anything more peaceful than fading into unconciousness and never regaining it. The ultimate sleep.

 

[Donna]

Even dogs want to kill them selfs , it said in this article that if the dog jumped from that exact bridge it will try and do it again.

 

[Rocky M]

I feel at ease. I will finally get what I deserve.