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Astral316

Astral316

Specialist
Aug 26, 2019
332
Thank you. I'm female but hopefully the same will happen. So bowel/bladder wise is normal for you? How long did it take overall? I'm so sorry to keep asking but the neurosurgeons won't say anything about it.

I don't think gender makes much of a difference.... a recovering human body is a recovering human body, ya know?

Bowel/bladder didn't return to 100% but I'd say it's 90-95% returned. Bowel came back first... not sure when it came back. Bladder was the big issue... it came back after about 6 months.

Yea, the neurosurgeons don't want to give you false hope. They don't know how much "return of function" you will get. Everyone is different.
 
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Amz_Falls

Student
Aug 23, 2019
175
I don't think gender makes much of a difference.... a recovering human body is a recovering human body, ya know?

Bowel/bladder didn't return to 100% but I'd say it's 90-95% returned. Bowel came back first... not sure when it came back. Bladder was the big issue... it came back after about 6 months.

Yea, the neurosurgeons don't want to give you false hope. They don't know how much "return of function" you will get. Everyone is different.
Yeah I guess.
I can't thank you enough though for giving me a little hope. I'm glad things improved for you, I hope you're doing ok now?
 
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Astral316

Astral316

Specialist
Aug 26, 2019
332
Yeah I guess.
I can't thank you enough though for giving me a little hope. I'm glad things improved for you, I hope you're doing ok now?

You're welcome. Like I said, give rehab everything you've got.

Well I've recovered to the point where I don't even think about the accident/my injuries unless it's relevant to a conversation. I mean It's not a reason why I plan to CTB. Are you still looking to CTB or are you giving life a chance with a different perspective?
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
It's a tough gig to do. I've thought of it a few thousand times, so not too much compared to other less violent methods
Peace/hugs
 
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Amz_Falls

Student
Aug 23, 2019
175
You're welcome. Like I said, give rehab everything you've got.

Well I've recovered to the point where I don't even think about the accident/my injuries unless it's relevant to a conversation. I mean It's not a reason why I plan to CTB. Are you still looking to CTB or are you giving life a chance with a different perspective?
Can I ask how it happened? Were your injuries severe?
I want to CTB, especially now knowing I can overcome SI, but seeing the state of my boyfriend and family I just don't know. I feel like I have to live my life for other people now.
 
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GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
1,621
The problem is that peaceful methods rarely work.

And actually I'm not really sure that pill overdoses are peaceful in the rare instances where they actually lead to death.

The only reason most pill overdoses are peaceful is because they don't do much harm, or come close to killing a person.
Yeah if you don't know what your doing you will survive. I've been studying suicide for years on and off so I know the peaceful methods. Honestly it really not that hard. You just got to read. Check out the peaceful pill handbook for peaceful methods.
 
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Astral316

Astral316

Specialist
Aug 26, 2019
332
Can I ask how it happened? Were your injuries severe?
I want to CTB, especially now knowing I can overcome SI, but seeing the state of my boyfriend and family I just don't know. I feel like I have to live my life for other people now.

Sorry I don't get access to internet on Sundays...

I was at a bar with a few guys I recently met, it was around midnight. One of the guys and myself decided to leave. He pulled up to a Shaws grocery store and wanted to climb to the roof. I was buzzed and looking for some adventure so I thought, why not? We climbed up the drainage pipe and began horsing around, yelling to people on the ground, etc. One of the people on the ground looked like they were calling the police from a Dunkin Donuts. I got scared and was going to run to the edge of the building and climb down. I thought I was jumping to a lower level of the roof but actually I jumped off the roof itself. I crash landed on the concrete below, saw a bright flash. I remember laying on my back unable to move but never lost consciousness.

My injuries were sacrum fracture and nerve damage, lumbar fracture and pelvic fracture. I remember my face being a bit bloody, too. I was in the hospital for a month and in about the same time I could barely walk. So not as severe as you but I'll never forget the excruciating pain I felt when they logrolled me or after I left the hospital.

It's nice you have people that care about you. I don't, so I'm not inhibited from C'ing TB in that sense but if you do I wouldn't take it for granted.
 
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thx1138

Student
Jun 28, 2019
160
Thank you guys for sharing your experiences. *hugs*

I want to jump from the 13th floor in the next couple of days. This thread didn't exactly help my fear lol. But I believe it's my only option as of now. And if it doesn't kill me, hopefully it makes me completely brain dead.
 
John Smith

John Smith

Arcanist
Aug 6, 2018
424
Sorry I don't get access to internet on Sundays...

I was at a bar with a few guys I recently met, it was around midnight. One of the guys and myself decided to leave. He pulled up to a Shaws grocery store and wanted to climb to the roof. I was buzzed and looking for some adventure so I thought, why not? We climbed up the drainage pipe and began horsing around, yelling to people on the ground, etc. One of the people on the ground looked like they were calling the police from a Dunkin Donuts. I got scared and was going to run to the edge of the building and climb down. I thought I was jumping to a lower level of the roof but actually I jumped off the roof itself. I crash landed on the concrete below, saw a bright flash. I remember laying on my back unable to move but never lost consciousness.

My injuries were sacrum fracture and nerve damage, lumbar fracture and pelvic fracture. I remember my face being a bit bloody, too. I was in the hospital for a month and in about the same time I could barely walk. So not as severe as you but I'll never forget the excruciating pain I felt when they logrolled me or after I left the hospital.

It's nice you have people that care about you. I don't, so I'm not inhibited from C'ing TB in that sense but if you do I wouldn't take it for granted.
Did you land feet first? Do you still consider jumping as your method?
 
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lymbo

Arcanist
Oct 12, 2019
483
You are welcome to Pm me


I think the main thing is that when people do jump off buildings/structures with suicidal intent they tend (from personal as well as having met 4 other people who had) is that you really are not thinking about anything but climbing over & jumping/stepping off. It is hard for me to describe quite where your brain has to be before doing something like that, by that point there is no Si or thought past ending the torment. Though i don't know anyone who didn't hit concrete.
from how much hygh dd u jump?
 
Astral316

Astral316

Specialist
Aug 26, 2019
332
Did you land feet first? Do you still consider jumping as your method?

Yes, feet first... and crumpled like an accordion on impact. Currently I'm acquiring the materials for SN method.
 
John Smith

John Smith

Arcanist
Aug 6, 2018
424
I believe it has something to do with falling head first
I've been cliff diving skydiving and bungy jumping. None compare to bungee
I would like to know how difficult it is to manuever yourself to fall so the top of your head hits the ground first. What do you think? Does it take practice or could a person do ot on their first try?
 
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bea1974

Specialist
Aug 7, 2019
331
When I was a teenager, in the 90's, my friend's boyfriend jumped from the balcony of his 19th floor flat.

First though, he took a bunch of drugs including morphine, valium, and cannabis. He also drank some vodka.

He survived. He left a fairly deep dent in the grass below (he had hoped to hit concrete but missed). The sight of that dent remains imprinted in my mind some 30 years later.

Medics said what stopped him from dying was a) hitting grass instead of concrete but also b) the drugs and alcohol making his muscles so relaxed for the landing.

He had only relatively minor injuries, a broken leg as I recall, and made a full recovery.

Died a few years later from heroin overdose having relapsed straight after a stint in detox/rehab.
 
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truthseeker

Student
Sep 9, 2019
123
I think it's all about height and no hesitation. I would/will travel to get to a suitable location. Some people don't have that option of course. Overcoming SI is what it is, this method may make it even more difficult. Going backwards may help avoid looking down in those last seconds. I see the payoff being the mere 7-8 seconds to the bottom and end of story.
 
Roger

Roger

I Liked Ike
May 11, 2019
972
He survived. He left a fairly deep dent in the grass below (he had hoped to hit concrete but missed). The sight of that dent remains imprinted in my mind some 30 years later.

Medics said what stopped him from dying was a) hitting grass instead of concrete but also b) the drugs and alcohol making his muscles so relaxed for the landing.

This famous photograph shows a dent in grass where a German airman had jumped from a burning airship.

 A group of British Tommies gather around the grisly imprint where a German airman fell from the sky


I believe that the man was still alive when found, though died shortly afterwards.
 
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Untitled

Member
Jan 14, 2019
95
When I was a teenager, in the 90's, my friend's boyfriend jumped from the balcony of his 19th floor flat.

First though, he took a bunch of drugs including morphine, valium, and cannabis. He also drank some vodka.

He survived. He left a fairly deep dent in the grass below (he had hoped to hit concrete but missed). The sight of that dent remains imprinted in my mind some 30 years later.

Medics said what stopped him from dying was a) hitting grass instead of concrete but also b) the drugs and alcohol making his muscles so relaxed for the landing.

He had only relatively minor injuries, a broken leg as I recall, and made a full recovery.

Died a few years later from heroin overdose having relapsed straight after a stint in detox/rehab.

That's really crazy!

I've read another story about a skydiver who survived a very long fall after his parachute failed. He said he believes what saved him was the fact he relaxed his muscles just before hitting the ground.
 
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bea1974

Specialist
Aug 7, 2019
331
This famous photograph shows a dent in grass where a German airman had jumped from a burning airship.

 A group of British Tommies gather around the grisly imprint where a German airman fell from the sky


I believe that the man was still alive when found, though died shortly afterwards.

Wow. Poor guy.

That dent looks be actually more shallow than the one left by my friend's boyfriend. His was approx 50cm deep as I recall.
 
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Lefty

Mage
Dec 7, 2018
542
Jumping is one of my methods. I've read it has to be high enough and landing on concrete is better than any other type of ground. Though actually jumping is hard when you're standing on the edge. Also, the pain that come from it if the death is not instant makes me hesitant. Also, ending up physically disabled is another worry. Still its a method I'd do.
 
John Smith

John Smith

Arcanist
Aug 6, 2018
424
Do you mean 4 to 5 stories or 45? How did you land? Was it difficult to maneuver your body to hit head first?
 
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toomuchgrief

a grieving mother
Sep 15, 2019
401
Despite the high mortality rate of this method it might be worth reflecting on the potential pain you might feel;
You jump.
You fall.
You hit the ground
If you don't die instantly, there will be a period of time when you are laying smashed on the floor, potentially feeling a world of physical pain not comprehensible.
You can do nothing but wait to die in agony or worse you get picked up by emergency services and live more if life with enhanced physical pain and disability.
Pick your spot wisely.

Your scaring me, this is 100% EXACTLY my thoughts, last thing I want is be quadriplegic, paralyze all 4 limps and still alive.

What do you think the chance of survive a free fall that reach terminal velocity?

I will be going to this bridge it 1,650 feet clearance below. Terminal velocity reach at 1,500 feet so this should be high enough. What are the chance of I plunge down here and survive?
How I wish I can hit those rocks below, but I'm scare that I will hit the shallow river below.

I only got ONE chance to CTB, rather this give me the result of death, or else I be quadriplegic.

Siduhe.jpg
 
charlie_z

charlie_z

Student
Apr 30, 2018
184
I will be a potentially violent and messy death at best.
The potential for failure and excruciating pain put me off for the this method. I lived in the Bay Area and spent time visiting the Golden Gate bridge. I'd stand there, sometimes a little inebriated, and just wonder what the fall would be like. Four seconds from the top to the Bay: just too much time for thought and reconsidering.
 
NotGoneButNotHere

NotGoneButNotHere

Member
Nov 3, 2019
45
given the right height and a solid ground, this may as well be declared the most effective and efficient method possible.
if you have such a spot nearbly, that is.
Yeah, under correct circumstances jumping is definitely up there for most reliable but for me personally it freaks me out. I always imagine being unlucky and suffering with grotesque injuries long enough to regret jumping or even just surviving overall being horribly crippled. I also would feel guilt for whoever has to peel my corpse off of the street lol
 
passenger27

passenger27

In my beginning is my end.
Aug 25, 2019
642
With enough benzos and alcohol I don't think I'd have a problem jumping at all.
 
SoupSnakes

SoupSnakes

Experienced
Nov 11, 2019
217
This was my method prior to coming onto this forum and settling on SN. Providing you choose a high enough spot where you cannot be stopped, I feel it's pretty foolproof. Unfortunately, you then have to deal with SI kicking in which is a kicker.
 
Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Also, provided that you care about such things and aren't planning on jumping from a bridge... Jumpers sometimes get mutilated in outright nigthmarish ways and passing children might see your corpse.
 
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Santiago

Mage
Mar 25, 2018
588
Ever since I saw this video of this guy in Paris jumping too far and landing ass first on a pole which impaled him alive, it's a nah from me dawg
 
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