Deleted member 18655

Deleted member 18655

Jun 4, 2020
"Release" by The Tea Party (Canadian band). It's written to an ex-girlfriend, apologising for hurting her. "I want you to be free from me" - this is my reason for ctb. It's perfect and makes me want to go as soon as possible just to release people from having me in their lives.



Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
The Noose- A Perfect Circle.
Can't speak for everyone else but for me it. But this song reminds me how much I let my ego and false self confidence ruin my life in the long run. It left me choking on my ego and humbled me.


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Jul 25, 2020
This song in a nutshell is about a lighthouse keeper who kills himself after being responsible for the deaths of everyone aboard a ship. He wasn't at his post one night because he fell in love and slept with a woman instead.


Sep 14, 2020

Tonight will be
The night that we
Begin to ease
The plugs out of the dam.
And we will stand
Knee deep in the flow,
The undertow
Will grab our heels and won't let go.
And while we hold,
Our legs quivering,
The water rises now
To our teeth
When we just let go
And sail belly up to the clouds,
The rocks scraping our backs.
To breath in the air will be
The only thing that we have
And all the wasted nights
And empty moments
In our lives flushed away
As we sway with the rhythm
Of the waves bobbing us up.
Crests fall to troughs we feel our gills open up.

And sail belly up to the clouds,
The rocks scraping our backs.
To breath in the air will be
The only thing that we have
And if the hook sets in
The bottom of our lungs,
We'll rip it out and lick the blood off with our tongues.

The despair can ravage you
If you turn your head around to look down the path
That's led you here,
Because what can you change?
You're a vessel now
Floating down the waterways.
You can take your rudder
And aim your ship,
Just don't bother with the things left in your wake.
Just sail belly up to the clouds,
The rocks scraping your back.
To breathe in the air will be
The only thing that you have
And your love will be warm nights
With pockets of moonlight
Spotlighting you as you drift,
The actor in this play.
And you walk across the stage,
Take a bow, hear the applause,
And as the curtain falls,
Just know you did it all
The best that you knew how
And you can hear them cheering now.
So let a smile out and show your teeth
Because you know you lived it well.
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020

This next one doesn't fully SOUND like a suicide song and it certainly was not intended that way, but I have interpreted it that way sometimes from the lyrics. :ahhha:
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Chupacabra 44

Chupacabra 44

If boredom were a CTB method, I would be long gone
Sep 13, 2020


Jan 29, 2020
Breathe me - Sia
reminds me of Effy‘s breakdown on Skins


Aug 31, 2020
Alice in Chains - Love, Hate, Love (ultimate BPD love song in my opinion)
Nine Inch Nails - Something I can never have


May 8, 2023
I wouldn't say it's my suicide song however it's more something I'd like to play at my funeral when I finally pass. I think it's happy and freeing and explains how I'd be once I'm gone..
That part where he sings "I'll be dancing I'll be singing, I'll be spinning round in circle, I'll be jumping I'll be screaming" is exactly how I'll be when I'm finally free from here. ❤️
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