Welcome to the site. I am sorry things are this awful and misterable for you and can relate to feeling like that.
Regarding drowning in a bathtub, even with a full bottle of clonazepam in your system making you sleepy enough to fall asleep, I recommend looking into other discussions on this topic. Take some time to evaluate the risks of failure and consider whether you truly want to pursue this or if there might be more reliable options to explore: [
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The body's natural instinct for self-preservation will most likely far outweigh the ability to CTB by drowning in a bathtub. While it is technically possible, just as one could die in an airplane crash or get bitten by a shark, these scenarios are highly unlikely. People do manage to drown, both accidentally and intentionally, but it's not a reliable method. It sounds quite difficult, and even if someone were to lose consciousness, the body will instinctively try to find a way to breathe.
I recommend checking out this post about how SI & self-preservation are hardwired into us. Overall, I don't think this method is very feasible, so if you're seriously considering CTB, it would be better to explore other options. Make sure to check out some of the stickied threads!
With whatever you decide, I hope you find everything you are looking for and get peace & serenity.
