Liseli
A lost recluse with no direction
- Sep 13, 2025
- 72
It's Christmas soon. The magic is gone. The music died. My family is torn apart.
I thought adulthood was different. I finally have a choice a say in what I can do and change my life. But life taught me different
My adulthood is about rotting. My family and friend circle gets smaller each year. People abandon me but no new ones come into my life. Society is screwed. I am nothing but a product of it. No more games with my sister. No more calls from my online best friend. Nothing is left. Old toys collecting dust in my childhood closet. My plants in my new home rotting with me. I know it will only get worse. But I don't know why I haven't left yet. I don't feel joy. I haven't even done my hobbies in a while except for drawing now. Which looks also crappy and not up to my age. I didn't improve much.
My family is aging. Slowly even their life joy gets sucked away. I can see it. They No longer hang out or talk much. They are all on their phone. So am I.
I know it can't keep going on like this. And I am slowly getting more and more worn out. The older I get the less people care and thats the truth. I cant connect anymore. Even in my safe community's no one cares to see my face anymore. Most stay silent while I cry
Humanity is dead
I thought adulthood was different. I finally have a choice a say in what I can do and change my life. But life taught me different
My adulthood is about rotting. My family and friend circle gets smaller each year. People abandon me but no new ones come into my life. Society is screwed. I am nothing but a product of it. No more games with my sister. No more calls from my online best friend. Nothing is left. Old toys collecting dust in my childhood closet. My plants in my new home rotting with me. I know it will only get worse. But I don't know why I haven't left yet. I don't feel joy. I haven't even done my hobbies in a while except for drawing now. Which looks also crappy and not up to my age. I didn't improve much.
My family is aging. Slowly even their life joy gets sucked away. I can see it. They No longer hang out or talk much. They are all on their phone. So am I.
I know it can't keep going on like this. And I am slowly getting more and more worn out. The older I get the less people care and thats the truth. I cant connect anymore. Even in my safe community's no one cares to see my face anymore. Most stay silent while I cry
Humanity is dead
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