What's the one thing you wanna do or happen before CTB?

[SR20DET]

I wanna play my favorite game for the last time

 

[deepocean]

Probably wanna hear specific things...

 

[overload]

I am thinking of sending a letter to the family of someone I met on this forum, someone with whom I shared a short but extremely deep bond. She CTBed two weeks ago. What we had was something between a friendship and something more — hard to define, but very real.

I don't know if it'll be possible though.

 

[jazzcat621]

Travel the country, preferably by rv. I wanna meet friends, see sites, and meet new people before I die.

 

[Ezrazzle]

Quit my job, travel to a few places I want and live peacefully playing games and relaxing until the money is gone. Would be a nice little deadline.

 

[JimBobX]

I want to leave all of my assets in my suicide note for the family I'm renting a room from to apologise for upsetting them with my dead body.

Also, I want to take a double dose of Xanax so I feel very relaxed when I pass (and can actually go through with it).

 

[satella]

What's the one thing you wanna do or happen before CTB?
I am very shameful about what I want to do before dying, cause the answer is sex, I don't think I am incapable of getting sex, but my mental state and problems in life, makes me incapable of even thinking about a relationship.

I want to talk to specific toxic members of my family who have hurt me all my life and not hold back at all on speaking my feelings to them. I've always been too scared to speak on how I feel because everyone in my life just invalidates me when I try and victimises themselves but since I know I'm going to be dying it won't matter anymore. Also want to tell my mother and grandmother I don't believe in the stupid religion they've tried to force onto me all my life although I feel that my mother already knows this

 

[outrider567]

turkey hot dogs with potato chips, vanilla pudding, dove bars

 

[EmptyBottle]

I wanna play my favorite game for the last time

btw, what game is it?

PS:idk what to wish before CTB, maybe that the CTB wish fades fast and conditions improve (they are reasonable now, hopefully they can stay that way... that would technically be an improvement vs conditions fluctuating)

 

[kopebaldy]

The numbers of things I want to do is infinite, thinking ab them would only make me crave for more and end up not going through with it.

Idk maybe eat some roasted sweet potatoes, yeah roasted sweet potatoes are neat. Not neat enough to stay alive for but still, pretty neat.

 

[Corovaner]

I want to have cancer. This would do ctb much easier.

 

[ellevain]

Honestly nothing anymore...i just want a quick and smooth exit and being calm and relaxed enough while doing it.

Same

 

[Vlad Tepes]

Honestly yeah I definitely would love to lose my virginity before I ctb. That being said, Im severely autistic, broke, unemployed, and literally deformed so its not like Im gonna have a chance to lose my virginity anyway even if I don't ctb lol.

 

[hiki4me]

I wanna talk to my ex again and have fun with her one Last Time
This will never Happen tho yet still i wait and wait for the message
I am so delu

 

[TAW122]

I want to be able to travel a bit and enjoy my hobbies at least, before I CTB (someday), that would just be a nice thing to experience.

 

[The_Sadness_of_Life]

I go find the cutest escort and passionate hardcore sex.
Then CTB.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

nothing. when i think about it logically the only things I want to do are those that move me closer to my suicide and execute my suicide

the other things I do is to avoid suffering and pain like sleeping, cleaning, groceries eating, etc. I only do these cause I'm still alive .

 

[woofwag]

It would be really cool if i could get all the surgeries I want. Top surgery, hysterectomy, bottom surgery... I would love to die in a body that is mine. And at least once, I would like to make use of my bottom surgery through sex, so I understand wanting sex and I don't think it's anything to be ashamed of to want that before death. Also, do a lot of drugs. I finally have a ket plug, but I still want to do mushrooms, molly, DMT, acid, 2C-B, and 2C-I. But at least for the last two, they are very very hard to find and I am stupid about researching how to get such things.

 

[birthdayboy]

There's nothing I want. I've lost all joy in everything.

I'm going to do it in the woods out in nature though, so I do think it will be nice that the last thing I see are the trees. I think it will make my family feel better too, knowing the last thing I saw was nature.

I think the time is almost here. I can feel that I'm ready.