What's the last year you felt truly happy?

[qetyioxz]

For me it's 2023 when I had friends, love interests, and I was so optimistic about my life.

I'd be shocked to find out how depressed and pessimistic I am now, bit by bit stuff just started getting worse, people pulling away, losing my focus, and now I'm here.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It was a long time ago for me but I would have to say 2014. Back then I got my first job that I managed to hold onto for more than a couple days AND was excited about starting college too and actually enjoyed my earlier classes at the beginning.

Since then, my life has just been descending downward, but with a few good moments scattered around it, but nowhere near as good as 2014 was. I'd say my rock bottom was 2023-2024, but now I'm starting to head back in that direction.

 

[itsgone2]

2004. Then I thought I was in 2024 but it was built on lies. 2004. Then life took over and I wasn't nearly strong enough

 

[Spite]

I'd say 2018, or maybe 2023. 2023 was a lucky year for me. I remember the whole of 2018 being lovely and I felt genuinely happy. I miss it so much.

 

[PolarExpress]

I don't honestly know the last time I was generally and actually happy.

 

[Macedonian1987]

2001-2002 was the last time I felt happy

 

[blacksand]

2020-early 21 was the last time I felt blissfully totally unaware of whatever darkness has since came and taken over my soul, and it's been a very rapid and shocking path down into serious suicidal depression. 2023 was the last time I reliably had some brief relief from these feelings for a month at a time if I was lucky.

It hurts more than anything else to sit here and ponder being in this exact room 6+ years ago and happy, memories so vivid and recent feeling I could touch them but I'm marooned in this future place of absolute bleakness.

 

[skyunderthesea]

Earlier this year I was genuinely happy. I even remember thinking how weird it was to be baseline happy instead of baseline sad. I've been spiralling though and now I'm the most miserable I've ever been. It's even worse, having my hope crushed by own mind.

 

[Le temps perdu]

I'm not sure I've ever been truly happy. I'd probably say 2016, I think I was generally happy because I hadn't yet become aware of the realities of life

 

[fadedghost]

I met this guy once and liked him and we spent time together. Then he got together with someone else so I neerly killed myself. Being with him was the last time I was really truly happy.

I was sexually assaulted after that and then that damaged my body permanently. That really stopped happiness in a way, mostly.

I was happy in some sense when my SN arrived also, but it was a tainted happiness, just happy only because I had a way to make the suffering stop if I wanted

 

[hughmun9]

I've never had a whole year of true happiness. I can recall a few moments, maybe 2-3 hours here and there last year.

 

[fadedghost]

Earlier this year I was genuinely happy. I even remember thinking how weird it was to be baseline happy instead of baseline sad. I've been spiralling though and now I'm the most miserable I've ever been. It's even worse, having my hope crushed by own mind.

I hope you try to get better or keep trying. Some people recover.

 

[LRkin]

2024, when I met my last love interest. I was depressed and lost, and when she appeared in my life it felt like we were soulmates, and I genuinely thought that she was sent to me by God to make my life less miserable. Though, our relationship didn't last long, and the breakup sent me even deeper into the pits of despair.

 

[d4nknee]

Genuine happiness for a whole year? I can't remember a time, but when I definitely had at least a glimmer of hope was like 3/2 years ago. Somewhere between then and now my brain dont work no more :P

 

[skyunderthesea]

I hope you try to get better or keep trying. Some people recover.

I don't know if I can. I can't face the humiliation of admitting how bad things are. I can't face the fact that my grandparents (who I live with) don't believe the worst thing to happen to me happened. That's what started my spiral, was finding that out. I live in hell. Sure I could get better but it's just so damn hard. I'm tired. I just wanna sleep forever.

 

[MaeW]

2001-2002 was the last time I felt happy

2008–2010. Same here.

 

[Sims3losertrait]

2015ish maybe

 

[fadedghost]

I don't know if I can. I can't face the humiliation of admitting how bad things are. I can't face the fact that my grandparents (who I live with) don't believe the worst thing to happen to me happened. That's what started my spiral, was finding that out. I live in hell. Sure I could get better but it's just so damn hard. I'm tired. I just wanna sleep forever.

I hope somehow things improve for you. I don't know what happened, but I believe you.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

2020. I wasn't entirely happy because there haven't been a period in my life free of issues, but I had a passion to follow and that was the last year before some psychological malfunctions kicked in and ruined it.

 

[hurts2b]

I don't think I've ever been happy. Just varying degrees of numb/distracted.

 

[never mind me]

Until May 2026. Although I had times when I felt really bad and even suicidal before, but that was a long time ago.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

For me it's 2023 when I had friends, love interests, and I was so optimistic about my life.

I'd be shocked to find out how depressed and pessimistic I am now, bit by bit stuff just started getting worse, people pulling away, losing my focus, and now I'm here.

Yo same! 2023 was a good year. It wasn't perfect but it was beautiful in its own way. I'd be shocked to find myself surviving, actually--considering that I've been wanting to end it all 2 years prior. I hope you get to bring back 2023 in the big 2026 even if shit is bad right now.

 

[singingcrow]

2010. i was ten

 

[Aflame5926]

i can't remember it to be honest. its been way to long. i dont think im ever really happy.

it was always a facemask i had to carry.

 

[FuneralCry]

No such thing as happiness in existing rather it's the opposite, I'll always see existence as the most terrible, cruel mistake that just causes all this torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all that existence ever does is just harm and torture existing beings all for the sake of it.

I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, to exist truly does mean to suffer and I'll just always see it as the most dreadful, torturous burden to exist, to me non-existence is just all that's positive, existence to me will always be a mistake, it's just so terrible how humans impose this existence at all causing all this dreadful suffering all for the sake of it. For me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence of torturous suffering, it's so horrible to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face the terrible extreme agony of old age.

 

[lpdsvm]

Right before Covid started. Now I feel much better with my methods and realizing I will have to do it one day anyway so why care. My small but nice super power.

 

[yotaka]

Late summer or early autumn 2022. I had a little while there where I thought things were actually working out. I remember one day in particular thinking, "If my teenage self could see me right now, I don't know if they would believe it. This is the life I've always wanted."

Shortly after that, the shell started to crack and I realized there was nothing beneath it. That moment was like something stolen from another life that could never have been.

 

[ForeverOutcast]

I have never felt truly happy.

 

[Aren]

For me it's 2023 when I had friends, love interests, and I was so optimistic about my life.

I'd be shocked to find out how depressed and pessimistic I am now, bit by bit stuff just started getting worse, people pulling away, losing my focus, and now I'm here.

2015 when i met my girlfriend (but she is gone now) good memories, i hope everyday to bring it back

 

[The Eternal One]

I think I've never felt truly happy, not that I'm actively looking for happiness to begin with.
I've always craved neutrality, absolute perfection that is peace. Neither polarities of positive or negative experiences entice me. I don't want the pendulum to swing from joy to pain and back - I want it to stop.