agentgeez
Student
- Jun 30, 2020
- 107
It's a little difficult to describe, but I think I enjoy the 'gaps' between life the most. Some people might call it escapism, but it's not so simple as just escaping what's supposed to be the 'main event'; life seems to be about these little things, although that sounds like a platitude at first. It's like thinking about the concept of people; whenever I read some fiction where the characters goof off or have these varied, defined (some might call it cliché or trope-y) personalities I always think about how neat it is for people to interact, even when they oppose each other. But whenever I'm with others in real life, aside from once in a blue moon it's always just conversations about politics or memes or drama or something. I'm probably not explaining it well, but to give you an example of the kind of things I appreciate in life, I tried reading some 'classics' recently, such as Crime and Punishment, The Metamorphosis, etc. They were alright, but I kind of just forced my way through them, and the subjects they discuss I feel are better discussed directly through conversation; even though they're using literature as an artform I never feel too impressed. Maybe I'm just not cultured. On the other hand, I've been playing two visual novel series lately, Ace Attorney and Danganronpa, and even though they're goofy and not tackling big topics I just genuinely have a more fun and cozy time with them. I suppose 'fun' isn't the point of classic novels, but I struggle to see what their point is, aside from feeling good about spotting all the narrative techniques and themes. I think essentially I just like things that make me feel like a kid again, where these supposedly big, important topics of human existence weren't in the forefront and actively playing a part in my life (like politics and philosophy and careers and so on), and you could just experience little snippets of human existence like comedy and stories, things like that. Even things like staying in a hotel or even a hospital room feel like some magical place in the gap between day to day life where you can just detach and appreciate what's there. The problem is that I only seem to enjoy these things, I don't want to take part in the whole package of life, I just want to be some kind of ghost or observer without an identity. Anyway, I definitely used more words than necessary for this, but thanks for reading if you did!
