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Jan 22, 2025
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Hey, so I'm still in the ward, just thinking of how I'll eventually kill myself >w< My options are sorta limited as my luck with SN seems nonexistent due to my family's very watchful eye T-T Sooooo… I was thinking of running away (when I'm out of the ward and free to do so) and getting decapitated by a train :3 even though I think train CTB is very very very uncomfortable QwQ.

I want something that's instantly lethal of course, and I believe it will be ٩( 'ω' )و the train travels at 100-110km/h on the stretch of railway I've scouted out. So, I was wondering what's the best position to lay on the train tracks owo? — I was thinking of placing my neck on the tracks as seen below

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Out of curiosity, how did you figure what speed the train travels at specific stretch of railway?
 
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trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
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Out of curiosity, how did you figure what speed the train travels at specific stretch of railway?
I've known about this spot for years so I've been on the train before and measured the speed with an app :3 Not sure how accurate it is but 100+ km/h is confidence inspiring ^-^
 
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I've known about this spot for years so I've been on the train before and measured the speed with an app :3 Not sure how accurate it is but 100+ km/h is confidence inspiring ^-^
Thank you for the reply I might have to resort to speed gun myself haha.
 
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trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
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Bump :3
 
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Jul 29, 2025
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This is how I plan to go out too. Decap specifically. What other methods have you tried?
I also just wanted to say that I think your pfp is really cute lmao!! :P
 
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trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
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This is how I plan to go out too. Decap specifically. What other methods have you tried?
I also just wanted to say that I think your pfp is really cute lmao!! :P
Truthfully, I've only tried slitting my wrists.. twice (non-method, I know— I was ignorant at the time T-T), I've tried partial hanging more times than I can count, but that shit does not work for me :( Ive also been to the tracks too, but got pulled out of it because a friend kept spam messaging me (so now i know to turn on airplane mode >w<)

I've ordered sodium nitrite a billion times too, but I've gotten my hands on it twice QwQ where after it was confiscated, and I was sent straight the fuck to the ward.

(also thnx about the pfp ^-^)
 
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madameviolette

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Oct 9, 2025
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Planning on that too, problem is that in my country trains have machinery on the front, my head would bump against it. I'd have to wait for the train to stop and put my head near a wheel until it starts again. How are trains where you live ? Are they railway carriage or modern trains ?
 
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trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
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Planning on that too, problem is that in my country trains have machinery on the front, my head would bump against it. I'd have to wait for the train to stop and put my head near a wheel until it starts again. How are trains where you live ? Are they railway carriage or modern trains ?
Placing your head under the train when its stopped is defo risky but I've seen it done before owo. Honestly its hard to get a good look at the train wheels where I live >w< the trains have a sort of skirt around the undercarriage, I just looked at some images online and it doesn't really appear there are any protrusions or machinery directly blocking the wheels :3 — though I'll have to take a closer look once Im out of the ward T-T
 
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Oct 9, 2025
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Placing your head under the train when its stopped is defo risky but I've seen it done before owo. Honestly its hard to get a good look at the train wheels where I live >w< the trains have a sort of skirt around the undercarriage, I just looked at some images online and it doesn't really appear there are any protrusions or machinery directly blocking the wheels :3 — though I'll have to take a closer look once Im out of the ward T-T
I mean I'd wait til the train start of course lol. Where do you live ?
 
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trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
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So the train, is it an intercity one or maybe a longer-route type like the EMD F125 and SC-42DM? If so, at a pretty high speed like you said earlier, it should be able to kill you from any position. Even if you just stand upright in the middle of the tracks​

A little extra...
Post in thread 'Will it work with this train?' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/will-it-work-with-this-train.209941/post-3052257

The type is a longer route commuter train— and it's funny you bring that post up, I actually have it open in another tab >w< I've been eyeing it for a while because it's the same type of train that I would be killing myself with ^-^

The only issue/fear I have is if the skirt is too low and impacts the head or body in an undesired way, but (wishfully) I believe there's enough clearance under the skirt to allow for a clean decapitation… especially at 100 kilometers per hour :P

But what do you think? owo?

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s-train? ... well, sure that's gon be a good hit
 

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