Venting What's stopping me

[keyakizaka]

serious question whats stopping me from hanging myself right now. i have everything ready and its perfect but i keep sweating anf shaking. im not even that scared but when i lean forward i stop. im so frustrated. this has to happen today. theres no other options. Im terrified of heights but i considered jumping but i cant find a building for that anyways. im not joking i have to die within the next 8 hours. maybe something will switch in my head by then but im so irritated. just do it seriously. ive been trying for the past few months but today i seriously planned to do it and thought about it all day. i just have to. im so done. and i have a job that i absolutely cant miss work or theyll do a search party. so i dont have much time if i dont want to be found

 

[bishopxowiki]

Survival instinct's a b***h

 

[sparrowcharm]

Survival instinct's a b***h

Are there any effective ways to outsmart it?

 

[NonEssential]

Are there any effective ways to outsmart it?

I'd assume by being under the influence, but that risks being able to do the method correctly.

 

[Forveleth]

Killing yourself is one of the hardest things you will ever do. That deep-rooted lizard part of your brain really, really wants to live and it has full override authority, unfortunately.

NonEssential is correct in using a substance can help but you have to strike a balance to not be impaired for your method. Also, the method itself makes a difference. Something like inert gas where your brain does not actually know it is dying has less risk of SI than a gun, jumping or hanging, where you have to consciously do the direct action to end your life.

Another piece of advice I always give in these threads is to be comfortable with death. Know the physical stages of dying, accept whatever you think is going to happen afterwards. Know your method well. The more familiar you are with death, the less scary it is. Also, do not set a date and think you have to die by then. This puts a lot of pressure on you and can make you anxious before you even start.

Even with all this, you may still have problems. I tried partial a while back and I was calm as a cucumber all the way through blacking out but I kept "jumping" myself awake (similar to the thing you do when you are about to fall asleep). My brain just would not let me go. I got worked up over it and gave up for the time being. I will try again when I feel calm and ready.

Unfortunately, there is no easy answer. We are built for survival.

 

[bishopxowiki]

Are there any effective ways to outsmart it?

Someone mentioned being under the influence, yeah that could work, but you can only be so drunk and still be able to commit to whatever method it is you decide to use. I can't think of any other effective ways tbh besides involving a third party

 

[vitbar]

Drink and drugs can also put you off, make things seem more hopeful.