This might sound corny but I feel so dead inside and I know a lot of you feel the same. I saw someone say this but can't find the post, they said something about feeling like they're already dead but still being dragged around as if they're living, and still having to act like a living person. I feel that way too, as if I already died inside but I am still trapped here. Does anyone here know what it's like to truly feel alive? Or are all of us in this same boat?
I said something like that but so have others.
Yeah I remember. Especially when traveling. About the only time I ever sort of had fun. I liked all of it. Airport, getting transportation, having to figure it all out. It was fun.
I remember just moving around with confidence. I've never loved life but I felt strong. Just get up each day and start rolling through things to do.
Being constantly active is what I miss. Always doing something, or listening to a podcast, reading, I was starting to actually study the Bible, not just read passages.
And learning to be kind. I've not been kind enough in life. Doing the opposite of my instincts and seeing the results was so rewarding.
I didn't realize just how much strength and identity came from my job. Since my company sold I've been devastated. I was spoiled as it was a great place to work.
All gone. I mostly couch and bed rot now. Yard is a mess. Don't eat well. House is always dirty. Completely different human in the course of a few months. Unreal.
I wasn't talking about a person. But It's not me glorifying it, it's the majority though.
