What’s it like to feel alive?

[sohopelessandempty]

This might sound corny but I feel so dead inside and I know a lot of you feel the same. I saw someone say this but can't find the post, they said something about feeling like they're already dead but still being dragged around as if they're living, and still having to act like a living person. I feel that way too, as if I already died inside but I am still trapped here. Does anyone here know what it's like to truly feel alive? Or are all of us in this same boat?

 

[Hollowman]

I use to be fully alive but it's been so long I can barely remember. I don't think I'll ever feel it again.

 

[sohopelessandempty]

I use to be fully alive but it's been so long I can barely remember. I don't think I'll ever feel it again.

I barely remember either. It sucks having to keep being technically alive even though whatever part that makes me feel alive isn't anymore. At least it feels that way. Maybe it's dormant?

 

[Raven2]

I've forgotten. Just going through the motions at this point.

 

[itsgone2]

This might sound corny but I feel so dead inside and I know a lot of you feel the same. I saw someone say this but can't find the post, they said something about feeling like they're already dead but still being dragged around as if they're living, and still having to act like a living person. I feel that way too, as if I already died inside but I am still trapped here. Does anyone here know what it's like to truly feel alive? Or are all of us in this same boat?

I said something like that but so have others.
Yeah I remember. Especially when traveling. About the only time I ever sort of had fun. I liked all of it. Airport, getting transportation, having to figure it all out. It was fun.
I remember just moving around with confidence. I've never loved life but I felt strong. Just get up each day and start rolling through things to do.
Being constantly active is what I miss. Always doing something, or listening to a podcast, reading, I was starting to actually study the Bible, not just read passages.
And learning to be kind. I've not been kind enough in life. Doing the opposite of my instincts and seeing the results was so rewarding.
I didn't realize just how much strength and identity came from my job. Since my company sold I've been devastated. I was spoiled as it was a great place to work.
All gone. I mostly couch and bed rot now. Yard is a mess. Don't eat well. House is always dirty. Completely different human in the course of a few months. Unreal.

 

[Persona3]

Having Stockholm syndrome and glorifying it

 

[sohopelessandempty]

Having Stockholm syndrome and glorifying it

This is usually related to other people but do you mean feeling this way about life? Like life is hurting you and so you have Stockholm syndrome for it rather than a literal person?

 

[Slark]

I think I've been happy in some situations, but I've had dysthymia for so long that I've forgotten what that feeling is all about.

 

[Persona3]

This is usually related to other people but do you mean feeling this way about life? Like life is hurting you and so you have Stockholm syndrome for it rather than a literal person?

You're right on my trail and I like that! I wasn't talking about a person. But It's not me glorifying it, it's the majority though.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I absolutely feel the same. I'm a dead man walking. I'm also a ghost . waiting for a meteorite I guess.

 

[Defenestration]

Same

 

[DeadManLiving]

Don't remember. I died sometime back in 2019.

Probably very stressful and simultaneously optimistic. But it's been a while. In between, just this sense of relief like exhaling. At some point all of the circuit breakers will soon flip as the last fuses burn out resulting in a fatal attempt.

 

[sohopelessandempty]

You're right on my trail and I like that! I wasn't talking about a person. But It's not me glorifying it, it's the majority though.

I unfortunately can't make myself do the same.

 

[Persona3]

I unfortunately can't make myself do the same.

Me neither

I unfortunately can't make myself do the same.

I could go into more detail to make it clearer, but it's good to see that you've understood the core of it. Not everyone gets to hear this perspective from me

 

[FuneralCry]

For me existing is just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, I'd never want to be alive, I'd never want to feel anything rather all I want is to be permanently unconscious with no more pain and no more suffering, I just want all to be forgotten about and I wish I never suffered more than anything.