She's longing for eternal sleep
- Feb 26, 2023
What's currently holding you back from Ctb right now... For me personally its fear of failing and guilt of leaving loved ones behind on this planet particularly my daughter (I didn't chose to bring a child into the world but unfortunately she was conceived when I was SA'd 4 years ago) I would never willingly bring a child into this cruel world and I hate myself every day because I know that this world is only getting worse and I'm the one who brought her into this awful existence because my poor judgement and risky behavior led to me being SA'd ... I had a recent attempt with SN and almost succeed but was found too soon... SI isn't a huge issue for me anymore thankfully but I still keep having second thoughts about another attempt because I don't want to leave her on this hellish planet alone.... However I know that I truly don't want to be here and that CTB is the only solution to my pain... I'm so torn and it's only making me more depressed...