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oyasumi
Oct 9, 2025
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im trying to CTB via partial hanging but i cant really get over my SI and go through it completely, so id like to know what it's like from people who did before actually attempting. if you could please reply with your detailed experiences or link a post where you talked about them that'd be really helpful
 
ChemicallyCalm

ChemicallyCalm

I Still Don't Know Where Everything Went
Nov 24, 2018
63
i'll be completely upfront, it made me feel like my head was going to pop. the pressure was so uncomfortable it made me stop, i'm sure if it's done correctly it's fine and that i must of messed up but i felt like a human zit

edit to add: i did a slipknot on a secure bar that's drilled into my wall, i may have tied or positioned it incorrectly
 
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sickofeverything

Specialist
Apr 17, 2026
344
I had a similar experience to the person above, either blood filled head or just a vomiting and pain feeling in my neck and got no where close to passing out. Some people pass out quick it just depends if you can find your sweet spot
 
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MyMomWasMyLife

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May 2, 2026
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im trying to CTB via partial hanging but i cant really get over my SI and go through it completely, so id like to know what it's like from people who did before actually attempting. if you could please reply with your detailed experiences or link a post where you talked about them that'd be really helpful
Never tried it and never will. Any kind of hanging seems like a horrible, painful way to go. Just the thought of it gives me the heebie-jeebies.
 
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oyasumi
Oct 9, 2025
50
I had a similar experience to the person above, either blood filled head or just a vomiting and pain feeling in my neck and got no where close to passing out. Some people pass out quick it just depends if you can find your sweet spot
same thing happened to me. i couldn't focus on anything but the pain on my neck and kept gagging, because of that i didn't last more that a few seconds so i dont know if I'd pass out or not. im not sure if im doing something wrong since it's supposedly "painless"
Never tried it and never will. Any kind of hanging seems like a horrible, painful way to go. Just the thought of it gives me the heebie-jeebies.
i used to think the same way until i got desperate, not a lot of methods are as accessible as hanging
 
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LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
327
When I tested it, the last time, I didnt feel the head popping anymore, I think I got the good spot, I mean my head did feel kinda filled up but not as bad. My ears were ringing and I was feeling kinda sleepy, maybe I wouldve passed out if I kept going
 
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AdeptFenster8773

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Apr 4, 2026
15
I have been trying to get partial to work for a while but I have been unable to get anything close to passing out. My experience has been about the same as everyone else's here. I have been blocking the jugulars and getting a tremendous headache on my best attempts without getting any euphoria or dizziness. I will keep persevering.

Recently I tried with a rolled up t-shirt around the front of my neck and it compressed the jugulars a little bit quicker and made things more comfortable. I think I will try it again on my next few attempts.

I've been using a 12mm rope with an arbor knot.
 
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voirpoet.

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May 14, 2024
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im trying to CTB via partial hanging but i cant really get over my SI and go through it completely, so id like to know what it's like from people who did before actually attempting. if you could please reply with your detailed experiences or link a post where you talked about them that'd be really helpful
this is my method too, thankfully i'm lucky enough to have easily locatable carotid arteries so when I practiced it it didn't hurt much, just uncomfortable. if done right the lights start to go out so fast it's honestly scary
 
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AdeptFenster8773

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Apr 4, 2026
15
When I tested it, the last time, I didnt feel the head popping anymore, I think I got the good spot, I mean my head did feel kinda filled up but not as bad. My ears were ringing and I was feeling kinda sleepy, maybe I wouldve passed out if I kept going
How long did it take you to get a good attempt? Just asking because I'm looking for inspiration to keep trying. Also, where did you place the rope and what position were you in?
 
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oyasumi
Oct 9, 2025
50
this is my method too, thankfully i'm lucky enough to have easily locatable carotid arteries so when I practiced it it didn't hurt much, just uncomfortable. if done right the lights start to go out so fast it's honestly scary
what was your setup? it was really painful for me
 
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sickofeverything

Specialist
Apr 17, 2026
344
For those repeatedly trying, how do you hide the marks afterwards??
Luckily for me I don't really get marks, I have tried without padding where the mark fades in a few minutes, less than an hour max or I use padding and get no marks. The worst I had was some small dotting due to blood vessels popping but it wasn't noticeable and I don't really go out anymore. I do use bruise gel/crème in case of anything which may help
 
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LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
327
How long did it take you to get a good attempt? Just asking because I'm looking for inspiration to keep trying. Also, where did you place the rope and what position were you in?
Days tbh, the thing is that I threw the upper end of the rope and grabbed it across the anchor point and held it on my hand instead of tying it to it just to test it.

I placed the rope above my adams apple and my legs were stretched forward, look up Marcus Jannes here and you'll the see position
 
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oyasumi
Oct 9, 2025
50
Days tbh, the thing is that I threw the upper end of the rope and grabbed it across the anchor point and held it on my hand instead of tying it to it just to test it.

I placed the rope above my adams apple and my legs were stretched forward, look up Marcus Jannes here and you'll the see position
how did you position the rope on your neck? and did you use padding?
 
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k1dd0

Member
Apr 23, 2026
5
I have tried this a few times but the feeling of suffocating kept setting of my SI, until last week I got a position where it actually felt kind of peaceful even though my head felt like it was filling up like a water balloon but every time my eyes rolled back and I was about to go unconscious it kind of jolted me back awake. I had it so it was squeezing the carotid with my head tilting forward standing on my tippy toes but it was taking a lot longer than I thought it would take

But then sometime between 5-10 minutes Police broke into my shed and released me. They came because I stepped off the ladder while talking on the phone to the hospital mental health (who made it clear they don't care) and she heard me "gurgling" so called police. I really thought it would have been over quicker than it would take anyone to get to me. They said I was purple/blue, and after they loosened it I involuntarily took a huge gasp of air then I couldn't stop coughing because I still felt like I was choking. For the next few hours I felt like I was drowning or like there was fluid in my lungs. Left side of my neck is still quite painful a week later, I think because when I stepped down from the ladder it pulled with a bit of force but the marks on my neck only lasted a day
 
LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

Vsed apologist
May 20, 2025
327
how did you position the rope on your neck? and did you use padding?
I just put it in between my chin and the adams apple, no padding but might try putting socks there to put more pressure on the arteries
 
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