I don't even know what to say, sometimes my mind is blank
Sherri
Archangel
- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,794
GrumpyFrog
Exhausted
- Aug 23, 2020
- 1,913
I keep seeing posts online about people blocking/ignoring/attacking/unfriending fake friends who aren't supportive enough or because they are also friends with someone questionable, etc. And I get it, but also where do y'all get all those fake friends that you're fighting with and that keep trying to get in touch with you and apologize after you tell them they're shitty people for not checking on you and block them, while my sorry ass can't find anyone to join me for a beer with zero expectations of any commitment or support from them and no intention to even bring up any of my dark thoughts? I'd even pay for their drink and snacks, I mean bloody hell. I'd take your piece of shit friends any time of the day, I'm hella lonely here, but nope. Guess I'm absolutely insufferable and no one wants my company, not even for a nice free beer.
Kristicide
I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
- Dec 16, 2021
- 330
That I'm broke and can't afford recreational drugs. I would love a huge bottle full of oxys, vicodine, or norco to ease the pain of each day.
ImsooDone1N
Arcanist
- Nov 22, 2018
- 846
I'm completely miserable, v depressed & my anxiety is unbearable. The fact that I've been craving dope really badly. And this anxiety won't let me function anymore.
Discovered today that my husband has been chatting with men on Grindr. So yeah, that's bothering me right now.
Finding out that probably the best thing that ever happened to me was just an attempt to murder me and steal all the riches I had. Love in this world is an illusion that should not be pursued by anyone. Not worth it. And also to find out that my own family sold me out to take a part in the spoils. May the same happen to all these bastards.
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Lotus
Experienced
- Dec 17, 2019
- 234
I'm truly devastated about how my life is and who I am as a person. I despise myself. I wish I could move passed it, but it's there no matter what I do. I know the way out, but I'm devastated about it. It was sort of easier when I was determined to ctb, but now I feel forced to because I cannot live a normal life no matter how much I try.
demuic
Life was a mistake
- Sep 12, 2020
- 1,383
People are poison. The more people, the more poisonous. Living will weigh you down with their bullshit if you refuse to be as poisonous as everyone else.
Live Free or Die
A wise man can always be found alone.
- Jan 12, 2022
- 117
Your post about the Florida trip he took. His behavior seemed like a red flag of infidelity for sure. But who am I to say that to anyone? I don't know you or him. Was just my first instinct upon reading it.
That I need brain chemicals to be myself and without them I be nothing.
Well, the Florida trip was legit, but I'm sure he was cruising Grindr while he was there. Maybe that's where it started, or maybe it's been going on for a while. He's done this before, but I thought it stopped. It just sucks because he's one of the two major reasons I'm sticking around. Makes me wonder if he really would be happier if I just offed myself.
LONE WOLF.
PUNISHER.
- Nov 4, 2020
- 1,988
When l die l have no one to scatter the ashes of my two Staffies and me at our favourite dog park and release our souls over the bridge! And that makes me very sad!
thinkkank
Experienced
- Oct 16, 2019
- 247
Sanva
:/
- Dec 10, 2021
- 261
i keep going back and forth on whether i want to ctb or not but ultimately i have to get it done with. there's nothing for me here and my life will always consist of suffering. it's partly just the hand I've been dealt but mostly it's my own fault. I'm weak and a coward. so many people struggle with the things i struggle with and all of them manage to live decent, normal lives. i haven't even been able to focus so I'm going to completely fuck up all of my exams.
i'm tired and i wish i had N
i'm tired and i wish i had N
absoluteanimal1
Death by chocolate
- Dec 17, 2021
- 941
I just had an awkward and uncomfortable email exchange with my future employer
The notion of doing college for 3 more years
Kristicide
I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
- Dec 16, 2021
- 330
My eyes have been really dry all day. I've put in a ton of lubricating drops and taken Benadryl but not helping.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
I think Benadryl can actually make that problem worse.
I have dry eyes too (which came about suddenly years ago likely from a related incident) and I take Benadryl from time to time to try to sleep, it definitely seems to make it worse and I'm pretty sure it's a legitimate listed side effect.
Kristicide
I am a prisoner locked up behind xanax bars
- Dec 16, 2021
- 330
I took the Benadryl later in the day cause then my skin was super itchy so I was thinking my allergies were acting up. I didn't know the med could make the problem worse but I guess that makes sense.
Manaaja
euROPE
- Sep 10, 2018
- 1,382
Shit, I wrote a reply with lots of advice and accidentally deleted it and I'm too tired to write it again.
Sherri
Archangel
- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,794
Having to go on holidays next month, and don't want to. I'm afraid of leaving my own world.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,170
Yea I think some other categories of allergy medicine won't cause dry eyes so maybe you can try some alternatives for when you're experiencing both issues, but I suppose it would depend on the type of allergies you have.
Nanako
Experienced
- Dec 24, 2018
- 287
I'm trying to shake off this irrational feeling of dread I've been having to deal with the whole day. I know I'm (probably) just being needlesly paranoid again.
Foresight
Enlightened
- Jun 14, 2019
- 1,397
I saw people and I can't see people. My agoraphobia is unbearable.
Being indecisive about what to do next
It's sad to see people die and things end, and the same process continues for a lifetime. Lifetime of losses.
maakies
DOOK
- Dec 7, 2021
- 132
Was away from this site for a while being distracted by stupid shit. Started a new job that I don't want to do. Back to CTB. I mostly don't want to do it because it's with someone that I pushed off me when I said no I don't think this is a good idea anymore while he was drunk and it was just not great. I'm just upset that I have to see him everyday for seven weeks. I pretend that I don't see him and I don't talk to him. I don't know why I am on this show if he was involved with hiring. What is going on?
